Newbie - Not sure even what to say but

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Registered: 04-21-2004
Newbie - Not sure even what to say but
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Mon, 04-26-2004 - 9:31am
I didn't realize there was a depression board on here. I've been seeing a psychiatrist for the past 5 1/2 years, taken various medications and realized that I was depressed for quite a few years prior to getting help. I ended up not being able to function at work and had to go see someone after finding out my mother had got her cancer back. She passed away about 6 months after initially starting to see my doctor (5 years ago on April 30) and I haven't been the same since.

I keep holding on to that thread and praying that some day I might begin to feel normal again, but it is so hard.

I'm not sure what else to say write now, but I would like to have other people going through similiar problems to talk too.

Sorry to ramble on, but thank you for listening.

Thanks again, Ellen

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Registered: 04-07-2003
Mon, 04-26-2004 - 11:46am

Welcome Ellen,


It's okay to not know what to say at first, many people come here and just start typing and are surprised at all the things that come pouring out.

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Registered: 04-21-2004
Mon, 04-26-2004 - 11:54am
Thank you for making me feel welcome! I greatly appreciate it!

Ellen

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Registered: 08-21-2002
Mon, 04-26-2004 - 12:08pm
Welcome to the board Ellen. This is a great place with tons of support, prayers and love!!! Keep posting sister!!!

God Bless Ya Sister

~Jen~

Anne
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Registered: 04-21-2004
Mon, 04-26-2004 - 12:19pm
Thank you Jen! It feels so great to have some people to talk too who are in similar situations. I have lost all of the friends I used to have to talk to (including my one best friend, don't get me wrong I understand why, but it still hurts) and I also have lost the friendship of all of my family members as they don't understand this illness and find it hard to not get angry and upset with me when I go through the really dark times and won't answer the phone, stay in bed and just hide myself away. They're tired of the times I just up and leave and don't let anyone know where I am for hours on end. I understand why they are fed up with me, but when I get really down and out there doesn't seem to be any reasoning with myself. It's next to impossible to make new friends in the condition I'm in and I don't really want to have anyone else to have to deal with this. That's why this board seems like such a great place to be. Everyone understands what the other person is going through.

Thank you, Ellen

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Registered: 01-26-2004
Mon, 04-26-2004 - 6:34pm

Honey, I know what you mean about trying to interact with anyone when this dreadful illness is weighing you down!

AcornLeaves
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Mon, 04-26-2004 - 7:25pm
((((((((((((((ELLEN))))))))))))))

I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I am glad you found this board, though, the gals here are great. I don't know much about the kind of grief you must be going through, but I am sure some of the ladies here will have great support for you. I will send lots of hugs and well wishes.

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Registered: 04-21-2004
Mon, 04-26-2004 - 7:37pm
Thank you for your response Barbara. It is so nice to have you guys respond to my post.

I have been seeing a Psychiatrist for the past 5 years, just a few months before my mom passed away. He is a good doctor, but it always seems that something will pop up in my life that **normal people** would be able to handle, but it sends me into an out of control tail spin that I can't seem to get out of.

Thanks again, Ellen

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Registered: 04-21-2004
Mon, 04-26-2004 - 7:39pm
Thank you Sara for your post and the hugs and well wishes. It may not seem like much, but it means the world to me.

Thank you, Ellen