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| Mon, 04-26-2004 - 10:57am |
I can hardly remember a time in my life that I wasn't depressed, expect for when I was pregnant with my daughter. It's been many years, lots of meds and therapists. Unfortunately I am allergic to alot of the anti depressants and anti anxiety pills and have been on the same one for years just waiting for that new one without the ingredient I'm allergic to. Just lost my therapist as he had a heart attack that I had all the trust in the world in and just do not know where to turn as I live in a small town with not too many therapists that I haven't already tried.
I'm a stay at home mom of my 3 1/2 year old daughter. The light of my life! She is truely a miracle as we went thru so many miscarriages and she just happened and was born with a heart defect that keeps getting better without surgery. Recently, my mom was diagnosed with Parkinsons Disease (very fast progressing), my dad has had 5 heart attacks and had open heart surgery in November. I also have a dead beat sister on drugs that keeps dragging my parents down with her. The stress is getting to me tremendously! My husband works anywhere from 50-70 hours a week to help us keep up with our medical bills. He works so hard and feel I just cannot let things out to him.
Sorry I'm blowing off steam to you all! Just need a friendly, understanding ear!
Thanks to anyone who listens!
CG

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Sorry for rambling, but I haven't talked to anyone else who had any problems taking the meds. and it took a couple of years for my doctor to fully believe me seeing as how the symptoms were so close to what they called a panic attack, but I knew the difference. I would greatly appreciate any information on your problems with meds. that you don't mind giving.
Thanks so much, Ellen
Well, my trouble began with medications when I was a kid, but no one could figure it out. When I was in my 20's I started working in the medical field and just started to do research on my own of all the meds I had reacted to. I have been on Tranxene since I was 15 and now I'm 39. I have tried everything on the market. I finally figured out that "lactose" was the only similar ingredient in all the meds. Took me forever to convince any drs that I was allergic, they said you can only be intolerant. After a couple of days of taking something with lactose some of my symptoms were (but different each time depending on the amount in the drug) were: I would get the shakes (like a panic attack, which I have frequently also), hard to breath, sometimes I'd break out in hives and once ended up in the hospital with my tongue and throat swollen. I always get really sick to my stomach and sometimes have vomiting. What finally convinced my doctors (after all my unpaid research) was when I ended up in the hospital and they kept giving me something to counteract it (which also had lactose). Finally they believed me! Since then, they and I have learned of the thousands of people who also have this allergy. Foods don't bother me, it's only the man made substance in meds. Strange, I know! But then again, we're talking about me. ha ha Needless to say, putting me on any meds is a major chore. Finally got put on Sarafem, which has helped some, but still having my really down days, especially before my period.
I hope I've helped you. Glad to see someone replied. I had this fear of even writing in thinking nobody would even look or pay attention. So, Thanks!
Chris
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Welcome, Chris!
Another Ladybug!
I am so glad you have finally joined us! It sounds like you are really going through a lot right now. I totally understand about not wanting to tell your husband about how you feel with all the working he is doing. I feel the same way with my husband, like if I put one more thing on his mind he will shatter. That makes it so much better that you have found us. I know I really feel a lot better when I can talk here and let out all my anxiety and hurt. And everyone is so supportive. Hopefully we can all do the same for you.
Looking for a new therapist is really scary, I know. I also live in a small town, and ended up driving an hour every week to my appointment. I do firmly believe that there is someone out there for you to go see. It will all work out for the best, I am sure.
let us know how things are going.
I really appreciate you taking the time to tell me about your experience.
Thank you,
Ellen
I am fairly new on the board, too, but I wanted to let you know I am sorry about your therapist, and all the stresses you are under right now. I am currently trying another SSRI to see if it will work for me, and I can imagine how stressful it can be to deal with depression without the aid of medication. Your daughter sounds like an amazing blessing, and your love for her is heartwarming. Please take care of yourself and look forward to hearing updates. You are in my thoughts.
Jen
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Thanks for listening!
Chris
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