stay at home mom

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stay at home mom
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Mon, 04-26-2004 - 10:57am
Hi! Just browsing thru this board, as I have many times before, noticing all the new people this time. I just decided it was my turn to become a new member. And someone to vent to!

I can hardly remember a time in my life that I wasn't depressed, expect for when I was pregnant with my daughter. It's been many years, lots of meds and therapists. Unfortunately I am allergic to alot of the anti depressants and anti anxiety pills and have been on the same one for years just waiting for that new one without the ingredient I'm allergic to. Just lost my therapist as he had a heart attack that I had all the trust in the world in and just do not know where to turn as I live in a small town with not too many therapists that I haven't already tried.

I'm a stay at home mom of my 3 1/2 year old daughter. The light of my life! She is truely a miracle as we went thru so many miscarriages and she just happened and was born with a heart defect that keeps getting better without surgery. Recently, my mom was diagnosed with Parkinsons Disease (very fast progressing), my dad has had 5 heart attacks and had open heart surgery in November. I also have a dead beat sister on drugs that keeps dragging my parents down with her. The stress is getting to me tremendously! My husband works anywhere from 50-70 hours a week to help us keep up with our medical bills. He works so hard and feel I just cannot let things out to him.

Sorry I'm blowing off steam to you all! Just need a friendly, understanding ear!

Thanks to anyone who listens!

CG


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Tue, 04-27-2004 - 10:07am
Thanks for replying! And thanks for the supportive words. It has been trying and I know I'll get thru it, but right now that light seems kind of dim. I'm glad I found this place to vent. Hopefully it helps!

Chris


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Tue, 04-27-2004 - 10:10am
Do you get migraines too? I get them alot when I'm really stressed! (most of the time) Maybe you can do some research too on your meds. I found mine in a Physicians Desk Reference book. Most libraries carry them. They are expensive to buy. Not sure if you can find anything on line or not. Check with WebMD. I usually check there on new meds if they aren't in my PDR. I'll keep you in my thoughts too!

Chris


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Mom to furangel, Chelse
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Tue, 04-27-2004 - 10:13am
Thanks for your reply! I'm amazed at all of them I got. You are right, my daughter is an amazing blessing. Although I never realized how stressful being a stay at home mom could be. I would give my life for her, but sometimes you just need that break and get away. That's kind of how I'm feeling today. I'm ready to explode!

Chris


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Mom to furangel, Chelse
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Tue, 04-27-2004 - 3:29pm

((((((Chris)))))), how many responsibilities you are faced with!

AcornLeaves
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Thu, 04-29-2004 - 9:48am
I'll check out those links. Thanks so much! I have been on every possible site there is for Parkinsons. There is lots of support out there for that. As for getting help with my parents care, don't know how I could. They refuse it, plus can't afford it. I live in a small town and we'd have to have someone come in from out of town, which costs alot more. My dad has medicare, but my mom hasn't been able to get good insurance coverage for years as she had breast cancer and was dropped by her insurance. She is on State insurance and has a very high deductible. I have very stubborn parents as you can see! I think my mom realizes how much it is weighing on me, but my dad just has no clue.

Yesterday was particularly bad. My dead beat sister lost custody of her son for good and the daddy is moving way across the US. We'll never see that sweet little boy again. It is tearing my parents up! My sister didn't deserve him either, but I really thought he would be placed in foster care. It has been proven that the dad's new wife has abused him, so it is just so hard to imagine why any judge would do this. My mom had four seizures yesterday due to the stress. Just don't know how much we can all take. I know God only gives you what you can handle, but how can he possibly believe we can handle all of this all at once! Sometimes I just get so angry!

Thanks for listening and checking on those sites! I really appreciate it!

Chris


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Thu, 04-29-2004 - 11:00am

Hi, Chris!


How sad about your nephew, especially with the new stepmom being an abuser.

AcornLeaves

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