Frustrated, snap out of this

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Registered: 04-13-2003
Frustrated, snap out of this
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Fri, 05-07-2004 - 9:16am
2 weeks ago today my job was eliminated. I spent 7 weeks training my job to my replacements, I did that so I would be eligable for unemployment.

I am wanting to talk about work after I left, but that is not an option. I want to snap out of this but that isn't just happening. I have a long to-do list, to the point of overwhelming, but I can't seem to focus on the list.

I have walked on the treadmill to assist with my mood, I have taken anti-depressants for years thank goodness. I need to snap out of this mood, but I am sad, and miss working.

In the past visiting and sharing on the boards helped so I thought maybe it might help now.

Time to get dressed and get out of the house and absorb some of the sun I see shining.

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Registered: 04-07-2003
Fri, 05-07-2004 - 1:07pm

(((((((((((((((((((((((((mumina))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))


Sweetie,

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Registered: 04-09-2003
Fri, 05-07-2004 - 6:03pm
All of us who have suffered from depression for years know it is more than just snapping out of it, as so many people tell us to do. Sometimes a revelation will lift the darkness. When I am down in the hole, I always pray and ask God for the strength and insight to get through it and out of it. I'm not a religious person, but I believe strongly in God. I don't know if you do or not, but I can say that this is the one prayer I ask for that is always answered with a "Yes." A friend of mine just prayed for the same thing and had life changing revelation right away. For me, it can take up to a day or two, but it usually within a few hours that I start to feel better.

I admire that you are forcing yourself to go outside. On my down days, I have a tough time doing that. I almost never can, nor do I even try to motivate myself to. You know how hard motivation is during those times.

It sounds like you are trying to do the things you know work. We all know that frustration. Did you go on disability because of your depression? It sounds like you really want to be working. One thing you can try is to do one thing from your to do list every day. I just read that suffering from the disease of depression is more debilitating than recovering from a non-fatal heart attack. I hope you can give yourself compassion for the very real disease you have.

It has helped me so much to be on this board and realize that depression is an overwhelming disease to millions. Just doing one thing a day for myself during my dark days has become a point of pride. It has helped me to know that other people know the feeling that it's a major endeavor to just take a shower on days of dark depression. I was able to be a little less hard on myself. So we can see that getting yourself on your treadmill during this time is a huge effort and you deserve tons of credit.

Is there no one you can call from your old job just to talk about work? Maybe the one thing you do a day on your to do list can be related to getting another job. It sounds like working is what you truly want to do. So maybe that can be your goal, unless there's something that would keep you from wanting to do that again.

I don't know if this helped, but I want you to know that we support you.

All My Best,

MariaC

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Registered: 04-13-2003
Sat, 05-08-2004 - 7:04am
I was up at 5 a.m. needing something, it has been years since I have felt alone in the dark but it is a familiar feeling and the boards really help me.

The links were very helpful; I was scrambling for the things I know to be true but things that need reinforcement right now. I do have self-esteem issues; I know it, which brings me back to the ‘snap out of it’. The links reinforced what I know; I will likely revisit them in the future.

I have been working out, which helps. I taking my med’s which keep me focusing on other things. I rejoined my weight lose program yesterday for 12 weeks just to remind me not to find comfort in food (stress is always good for +20lbs), and going to the weekly meetings will get me out with people at least once a week.

Knowing and doing positive things isn’t snapping out of it, but it is the right thing to do.

I want to enjoy this down time, but I struggled to get the job I lost, and dread the struggle I am facing.



I do feel better, and have a motto, “One Day at a Time.” I will be fine but the depression is real and I need to keep facing it head on to keep it at bay.

Thanks again for the kind words and links.