How do you explain depression...

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Registered: 06-11-2003
How do you explain depression...
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Sat, 05-08-2004 - 10:18am
to a loved one? I don't know how to tell my dh how I feel. I mean, I tell him but he doesn't understand how I feel 'cause he's not me, ya know? I think he just expects me to snap out of it. I wish it were that easy. I don't like the kind of person I am. I don't like the kind of mom or wife I am. I've tried medication (Effexor, Wellbutrin, Zoloft, Lexapro) but it just kills my libido which in turn causes my dh to think I don't love him. AHHH! It's a vicious cycle. At the moment all I want to do is sleep. I have a demanding full time job which really cuts into my sleep schedule. ;)


Oh, I forgot to formally introduce myself. I'm Nat, mom of two wondeful kids and wife to the most incredible man ever. They all deserve so much better than me. I think my depression has hit full circle since the birth of my second child nearly 3 years ago. I haven't been the same since, unfortunately: very short tempered, withdrawn, crying way too much, very little desire to do anything, tired all the time, paranoid about what others think of me (I was never like this before). At the moment I'm not taking any meds because it seems to cause martial problems. Dh tells me he likes the "Me" when I'm off meds so I went off. Then after a few weeks, he doesn't like that "Me" anymore and tells me to go back on medication. Do you ever feel like you don't know who you should be? I mean, at home I feel comfortable, like I should be able to be myself (whoever that is??). At work, I have the shell of a person, on the outside so to speak. I "act" like the person I should be but it's really just an act. BUT I want to be the person that I am in public but I can't. Does that make any sense at all???

If you've taken the time to read all this, I sincerely thank you. I plan to make an appt this week to see my dr (just a family dr as I'm not sure if I'm ready to seek counseling) and dh plans to go with me. I suppose we'll see how it goes. I'm sorry if I've rambled on too much. Once I started typing, I couldn't stop. :(

Nat

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Registered: 04-07-2003
Sat, 05-08-2004 - 11:59am

Welcome to the board Nat.

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Registered: 06-11-2003
Mon, 05-10-2004 - 6:33pm
Thanks for the welcome, Tracarts (sorry, I missed your real name).
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Registered: 03-22-2003
Mon, 05-10-2004 - 6:44pm

Hi there GoodMama!


I just wanted to welcome you to the board also and leave a hug!


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