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| Mon, 05-10-2004 - 3:34am |
Hi,
I have been depressed for as long as I can remember. I am finally on meds and doing ok for the most part. I have tried therapy many times but can never seem to trust the person enough to make any progress or really to even get started. I know I need to be in therapy but I also know its not going to do me any good if I cant tell the doc whats going on with me. I do lots of thinking and I understand most of whats going on with me but there are things I want to change that I doubt I can all by myself. I have major trust and abandonment issues and knowing that the only reason this person is sitting there willing to listen to me is because I paid them to, bothers me. Yeah I know its not their fault I have no friends and no one to talk to, but thats how I feel. Recently I have started feeling like I am headed for a huge breakdown. I hold in all my emotions and every now and then I burst. I know I need to talk to someone but how the heck do I do it if I cant even open up enough to get started?
I have been depressed for as long as I can remember. I am finally on meds and doing ok for the most part. I have tried therapy many times but can never seem to trust the person enough to make any progress or really to even get started. I know I need to be in therapy but I also know its not going to do me any good if I cant tell the doc whats going on with me. I do lots of thinking and I understand most of whats going on with me but there are things I want to change that I doubt I can all by myself. I have major trust and abandonment issues and knowing that the only reason this person is sitting there willing to listen to me is because I paid them to, bothers me. Yeah I know its not their fault I have no friends and no one to talk to, but thats how I feel. Recently I have started feeling like I am headed for a huge breakdown. I hold in all my emotions and every now and then I burst. I know I need to talk to someone but how the heck do I do it if I cant even open up enough to get started?

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