I just feel so fat and tired!
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| Wed, 05-12-2004 - 2:25pm |
I see my psychiatrist on Friday. I hope she sees that there is a problem here. I'm starting to yell at the kids more again, which had gotten better when I started the buspar. I have no energy and my house shows it! I get home from work and just want to crash, or just go outside and sit while the boys play and ignore what it looks like inside. I feel like such a pig! I'm just not interested fin anything in my life. Everything is such a chore. I HATE feeling this way!
I've been going to physical therapy for a couple months now. I hurt my neck about 4 years ago and they took x-rays and couldn't find anything. So they gave me pain killers or something and sent me on my way. It's always bothered me since, usually managable, sometimes not. I finally got the doc to listen to me and he sent me to PT. But it only helped just so much. So I got him to agree to an MRI. After two appeals to the insurance company it finally got approved. (Severe Pain is not a reason for an MRI!) And the results are in. I have disc herniation. I forgot to ask the nurse what vertebrae are involved. (obvisouly cervical, but I don't know which ones) I have to see a neurosurgeon on Monday. I'm scared to death! I know that surgery is the last resort and they usually heal on their own, but I figure, I've been dealing with this pain for 4 years... It doesn't bode well for me.
See, I'm always just waiting for the hammer to fall...
Lee Anne

Congratulations on your 7 pound weight loss! I can understand the thought of still feeling blah after weight loss, but sweetie you are on your way!! Keep up the good work and you WILL see results. It just takes time. I have lost 24 pounds since January with the help of the wonderful ladies on the Compulsive Overating board.
Please keep in mind that your pdoc is only as good as the information you give her. You have to be open and honest for her to see what is truely inside. Tell her exactly how you are feeling. Maybe a med change is in order or something.
I can appreciate that you are nervous for your appointment on Monday. I am pretty sure I would feel the same if faced with a similar situation.
Take care
Pamela
Thanks so much for your warm encouragement. I try to post on the South Beach Diet board, but it just doesn't appear to be as receptive. I usually get a CL telling me that no, that's not on the program... LOL!
Are you following a weight loss program or following the food pyramid or what? I never thought that I would bounce around to different programs, I just wanted to eat healthier, but in the recent years I have bounced from Jenny Craig, Lean Line, Weight Watchers, Atkins, back to Jenny Craig, and now South Beach.
I'm going to try and find the board you commented about. You've done an excellent job! I am a bit compulsive in my eating... Stress eater too.
I think that I'm being clear with my doc... but it's like she's not listening sometimes. She wants to talk to me about how busy all we women are these days. How hard it is to raise kids... Kind of saying what I'm feeling is normal... maybe it is, but Why does it overwhelm me? We'll have to get more to the point on Friday and not her usual chit chat.
Thanks so much for listening. I'm trying to find posts I can contribute to, but I feel so shy about it. I don't want to be one that just takes... I want to give back as well.
Lee Anne
Lee Anne,
Congratulations on losing the 7 pounds.