Depression and No Support
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| Fri, 05-14-2004 - 10:33am |
I was suppose to have a therapy appointment but, my dear jerk husband decide he was going to be gone and not take care of the kids when I needed him to do this. I told my mom if it wasn't for my childern I could care less if I was dead or alive. I am angry of how fat I have become and how lonely I feel.
I have suffered depression most of my life. But, when I was a teenager I can blame my dad (abusive alcoholic), in my 20's I never stopped going, in my 30's I got married and started a family not thinking of what could happen.
I am 36 years old with a husband in the Navy. Who acts like he hates me most of the time. (Mothers Day) he went out of the way to do nothing for me He didnt even have the kids make me a mothers day card. I think he may even be cheating on me.
I am on Medication but, it ran out last week but, it made me had really bad dreams and I was bouncing off the wall during the day. I was going to see my therapist to see if he would change my meds but, thanks to my hubby I cant.
You may read this and think wow what a whiner...but, I am just venting and in my own way I am reaching out for help because, I have no where else to turn.
Thank you
notaperfectmom

LOL,
Chris
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This is a tough situation. Have you tried to have a sit-down talk with your husband and really told him how you feel about your life?
If you feel you have tried everything, it sounds like this relationship is over. You children can see what is going on too, of course. I always think of divorce as a last resort. However it sounds like he doesnt try very hard on his part.
Can you get a babysitter to take care of your kids so that you can go to the doctor or a therapist?
Please take care of yourself. His behaviour is really bad, and you deserve better. You are a good person. Please keep posting to let us know how you are doing. You have support here @-}---
Hi and Welcome!!
You are definately not a whiner hun!
*hugs
Welcome to our board, Notaperfectmom!
But finding this Depression Support message board and reading it all help me to forget my pain and i hope it does the same to you. But im still coping with this loneliness and neglect. ( My H used to be very romantic.He a little overweight but now he phyically attractive becoz of gym. He sent me flowers every year at my workplace for my birthday and our anniversary. But for the last six months he is changed person. But im trying to cope with all this feeling.)
I thought I would try to wake up in a good mood this morning and it didnt work. My son was into something when I was trying to take something for my allergies. I went off on him...I was yelling at him on top of my lungs about how he doesnt listen and how I wish I wasnt his mother anymore....I feel so awful..
Been crying most of the morning agian...I hate this...I never felt so alone in my life. Even without my childern and hubby I never felt so lonely. I feel drained because, I childern require so much of my time and my attention. My childern are my everything...but, then I talk to my son like my father would talk to me...
I wish this would be over with...dang depression...and I am surrounded around of alot of people who think I am a hyprocondreact....
Thanks I did need for someone to listen...
Yours truely,
Beth
Notaperfectmom
Hugs, Brenda
Today I sms my H asking when he's coming home as he finished his class at 6pm. It already 9.30.No respond. So instead of brooding, i sent my son to my mum's home and bought movie tickets Val Helnsing and watched with my friends. It was a midnight show and i just came back.
Lilla, singapore
Lilla, welcome to our board!