tired head pounding and grumpy.....

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Registered: 11-18-2003
tired head pounding and grumpy.....
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Thu, 05-20-2004 - 11:04am
Hello Ladies.....

I need to rant for a minute I am sorry...

I am so tired have had such extreme exhaustion for a month now..my head is still pounding for over a month now and I am so grumpy for a week now I want to quit my job I want to go to Arizona and never come back...I talked with my son on Monday and then I spoke with his step mother about my trip out to see him and she and I were chit chatting when I heard Jakob call her mommy I have heard him say this so many times before but I got so upset I faught the tears I am MOMMY not Stephanie I gave birth to him I was in labor I had him in my body for months I changed his diapers fed him bathed him and he doesnt even call me mommy it hurts so bad I love my angel so much and I hurt so much when I go out there I never want to leave why should I come back to Connecticut I have nothing here no life no bboyfriend no family I have made a bigger mess of my life since I moved here..I have confronted ALOT of demons past but for what sometimes it just seems all in vain I always have to have something to obsess about now it isnt working out but my appearance what others thinkof me I mean it has always been something I have thought about but for two weeks now it is the only thing I think about I can skip a day of working out and yeah I feel guilty but I am trying to not freak out my head hurts too much to freak out..and this being tired crap that is not me I am never so tired that I can not wake up in the morning and get this I am so tired that I get dizzy and light headed and sometimes nasious and at night it can be hard to fall alseep but yet I am tired whats up with that..I do not get it..I laugh to try to not think about it or complain about it but it bothers me..I called my doctor this morning and I am waiting for a call back maybe he can help me on this one he thinks that I need to go to a headache specialist could be a blood clot tumor migranes maye I just need a head transplant who knows...

okay now I sound like a big baby.

Just needed to rant and rave and whine

Love to you all

Erin
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Registered: 03-26-2003
Thu, 05-20-2004 - 11:14am
I've never had kids, so I can't begin to imagine what you're going through! My heart goes out to you!

Tracie

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Registered: 03-11-2004
Thu, 05-20-2004 - 11:36am
Good thoughts and Love going out to you today Erin! Hugs, Brenda

Hugs, Brenda