I'm New

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Registered: 06-03-2004
I'm New
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Thu, 06-03-2004 - 3:35pm
Hello All!

I'm new here and just wanted to say hi. I've dealt with depression and dysthymia (if you're not sure what that is, check out http://content.health.msn.com/hw/health_guide_atoz/ty6736.asp?navbar=hw30711 ) all my life, or as long as I can remember.

I'm going through some tough times right now in my life and this board seemed to be very supportive... and that's one thing I know I need right now.

I've answered some of the questions in my profile, feel free to take a look.

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Registered: 11-18-2003
In reply to: ellemeno21
Thu, 06-03-2004 - 3:42pm
Hi Ellemeno21,

Welcome to the board...

I am so glad that you have seen already how grea thtis board is it really is such a supportive place to be the women here are awesome...

I hope that posting here will give you all that you are looking for on your journey to getting better..

Could you tell us a bit more about what is going on with you and your life that way we can support you better, we are kind of like a little family it is amazing on how much the women here know me thay actually know me better than my friends and family do..

Welcome again and I am glad that you found us.

Erin

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Registered: 06-03-2004
In reply to: ellemeno21
Thu, 06-03-2004 - 4:13pm
Tell you a little about myself and what's going on with me...

Well, I'm not sure where to start. I'll start with my recent battle with depression. For over a year I was on Effexor and I was okay. Not great, not where I wanted to be emotionally and I had headaches often, so my dr switched me to Lexapro. After being on that for about 3 1/2 months I fell apart. This was about mid-May, I missed a whole week of work, partially with a cold, but mainly because I just couldn't get myself out of bed, in the shower, ready for work, etc. I started having suicidal thoughts. I've had my spells of depression, but this was the deepest, darkest I'd ever been. I talked to my counselor and she had me go to a treatment center... they admitted me to a day program. So I missed the next week of work because I went to group therapy from 9-3 every day.

Besides the Lexapro not being quite enough to balance out the chemicals in my brain, I was also stressed because I hated my job. I worked for a contract company with the INS. I was a data entry clerk. I had to be there at 6 am and just key information in all day long. We weren't supposed to talk to our co-workers except at break and our 30 min lunch. If someone next to me had a problem or a question, I wasn't supposed to answer them, I was to refer them to our supervisor or team lead. Even just simple computer problems. I know a bit more about computers than most of the people in my department. Anyway, they basically wanted robots, no one even noticed anything going on around them. They were all like drones, it was creepy, like being in the Twilight Zone.

On top of that I've been having serious doubts about my fiance. Whether or not he's the right one for me, if he can give me all I need. Ugh, so much to say and I feel like I've already typed too much...

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Registered: 04-09-2003
In reply to: ellemeno21
Thu, 06-03-2004 - 5:36pm
Welcome to the board! I checked out your profile. I'm a huge Buffy and Angel fan! It's been such a blow to me that Angel was cancelled this year. I'm going to miss Spike so much! I like That 70s Show too, but I don't watch it as much. I haven't seen Dead Like Me. I was just reading about it recently. I'll have to check it out. I love supernatural stuff. I love Charmed too, though it's much cheesier than the Buffy shows.

You're right, this is a very supportive place. I love it here. I think the world should be more understanding and caring, like people are on this board.

I don't know if you have read any of my posts. I have had depression off and on, mostly on, for most of my life. I went through a really bad patch for about 6 years, then finally found a great therapist. I still have ups and downs, but I have so much more peace and happiness now than I've ever had in my life. I live in San Diego. I've been here for four years. I just love it here. I've lived all over, but I've never been to Dallas. Houston, but not Dallas.

So what's been going on with you lately that has made things so much harder? I know that unemployment is really awful. I think that looking for a job is one of the hardest things to do.

I'm glad you found our board. It's a very kind community here. It's nice to be able to talk about depression issues and know that others will understand what you're going through.

Welcome Again,

MariaC

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Registered: 03-22-2003
In reply to: ellemeno21
Fri, 06-04-2004 - 6:38am




Hi Elle!


Welcome to the board!

*hugs             

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Registered: 06-03-2004
In reply to: ellemeno21
Fri, 06-04-2004 - 12:24pm
Thanks to everyone for the words of welcome.