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I'm a loser
| Tue, 06-15-2004 - 2:01pm |
and I can't stand myself anymore. Nothing turns out right for me and I seem to screw everything up. Can't even balance my check book and always short on money. I'm fat and can't seem to stop eating. I yell at my kids and can't seem to stop that. I'm so deep in the hole that I don't know how to get out anymore. I'm at work and just wanna run away from life. I just can't deal with it anymore.
Ilka

I am going to break apart your post that way I can answer your post a bit better....
Nothing turns out right for me and I seem to screw everything up.You do not screw up everything, you have 3 beautiful girls who love you very much, not only do you run a house hold work a job raise children but you do all that day in and day out you are more like super woman than anythng else..so please get screw up out of your vocabulary...
Can't even balance my check book and always short on money.Honey I do not even know how to balance my check book never have been able to do that I do online banking I do not know if your bank offers that where you can check on your accound balances checks cleared stuff like that and let me tell you it has been my life saver for a year now dont know what I would do with out it..so the check book think put it this way if my life depended on balancing my check book I would be dead since I do not even know where to begin with that...
I'm fat and can't seem to stop eating.STOP you are not fat you are beautiful maybe you are like me I am an emotional eater or I used to be but think like this is you could your body needs food to survive... you have given birth to three children your body nhas gone through a traumatic experiance 3 times and I know that you know that your body doesnt not ever go back to the way it was before you had children I know this because of my son I am not like I used to be I have curves which I love now but hated for many years after he was born...so please do not think of yourself as fat or anything negative..you are a giver of life three times over that is how you should look at yourself..
I yell at my kids and can't seem to stop that.I think that all of us yell at our children I do not because he lives far from me but I know that my sister raises her voice to my neice it is a fact of parenthood children get to feel the wrath of an angry parent (I do not mean that in a bad way)the key is to be able to know when to walk away and stop yelling when I want to yell at someone I walk into my room and throw myself on my bed and scream into my pillow or beat the heck out of my bed...and that makes me feel so much better...I did not always know when to walk away when I still had my son living with me but I learned to hard way that it is best to walk away and beat up your bed and scream into your pillow.
I'm so deep in the hole that I don't know how to get out anymore. I'm at work and just wanna run away from life. I just can't deal with it anymore. you can get out of the hole by posting this you are slowly pulling yourself out...I know that you have been down this road before and that you had gotten out of the hole before and you will do it again have some faith...and no you do not want to run away from life what good will that do you just because you run from one place doesnt mean that your problems wont be waiting for you..things will be fine in the end it will all work out for you..you are a very STRONG PERSON....
It's nice to know that people like you are here to listen.
Ilka
Sometimes you have to look at things ina different way..most things happen for a reson weather you see it in a good way or a bad way is totally dependant on the situation with the money thing maybe that is a good thing to kinda help you see that there are more important things out there than money I know that we all need money in order to live pay the bills put food on the table clothes on our back ect....but I also believe that money is the root of all that is evil most people get a divorce because of money most fights occur because of money..I have been so bad with money this month I baught myself a bandue top a swim suit and shoes none of which I need but with my vacation coming up soon I needed a new bikini to go to the beach in and I have been good so I figure that is my treat to myself...
I am sure that with the whole not getting along with your loved ones will subside soon and things will be okay for you...time is everyones best friend it mends a broken heart and heals all wounds...I know what you mean about the loved ones thing me and my sisterhave not spoken to one another since march she hates me now I do not blame her but she can not place all the blame on me it isnt fair..thing is I know that if I give my sister time and space things will work themselves out or at least I hope that they do....
You will be okay hun keep holding on you will get through this
Erin
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Wendy
I've certainly been where you are now and I know how discouraging it can be. Sometimes it's easier to tackle one issue at a time. For example, learning to balance your checkbook will give you back the power you feel you lack. You'll feel much better when you're in control of your finances and have a handle on where your money is going. Once you accomplish that, move on to the next issue. How can I do (fill in the blank) better and work on that.
When you take things in small steps they are less overwhelming and the accomplishment you'll feel once you achieve your goals will be tremendous.
Keep your chin up!
Christine
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