So Tired

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Registered: 06-22-2004
So Tired
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Wed, 06-30-2004 - 2:20am
I feel like I am getting nowhere. Nothing bad has really happened, but also nothing good. I keep postponing simple tasks just because I don't feel like doing anything. For instance, I need to phone the dentist to get my teeth cleaned and I keep postponing that. It can be done later. I don't have to call right now. And the day goes by.

I do my work. Things are slow at work so it doesn't matter if I don't get much done. When the rush comes, I will do the work faster because it will matter. But anything I can postpone, I postpone.

If I had friends who wanted my company, if I felt appreciated at work, if I felt that my efforts made a difference...

I would hve liked to have friends over for the Fourth, but I knew there was a good chance that people would refuse and the effort of asking and the pain of being rejected and the hassle of getting the house clean if they didn't refuse made me decide not to ask. Still I am sorry about that. It would have given me something to look forward to.

There seems nothing to do. Nothing worth doing. I know the feeling will pass. I'm just so tired of waiting for things to get better.

Thanks for listening.

Tris

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Registered: 11-18-2003
In reply to: trist_e
Wed, 06-30-2004 - 10:41am
things will get better, you just have to give it time, life is full of ups and downs highs and lows everyone has them even those who are notsuffering from depression..it is just a fact of life that is all.

I wish you had asked people over for the 4th you never know they might not have refused your offer they may have said yes and then you would have had a great time...I have learned to never assume things never assume what people are thinking what they can or cant do or what they are going to say in the end you will have regret over those thing and I sense that you do have regret for not asking...

Sometimes in order to feel better we have to pick our butts up and do things clean walk talk work shower stuff liek that cause if we let ourselves stay in the rut we will never get out of it...I have felt so crappy for a week or so now crying not talking stuff like that but I force myself to get up even though it takes me 2 hours to get out of bed I do it I take a shower do my hair and makeup go to work go out talk with friends meet people I make myself work out even when I do not want to because I know in the end I will feel better I beat myself up more when I do not do things then when I actually acomplish something when I really do not want to...

I know that this will pass for you the tiredness will go away and the sun will comeout again for you just hang inthere....you will be fine..

Erin
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Registered: 06-22-2004
In reply to: trist_e
Wed, 06-30-2004 - 10:19pm
Thanks for the positive words, Erin.

I get up and get dressed and go to work. I make dinner most of the time (or make sure someone else does). I've stayed on my diet (mostly). But I have no energy for anything else. I know I need to exercise, but it is such a chore just to get out to work. After work, I just want to crawl back home. Tomorrow it's going to be hard because I start earlier. I'll end earlier too, but I'll have to push myself to be on time.

I really need some good things to happen. I mean really good things, like being invited to a party (not just a party that everyone gets invited to either) or having someone at work say I did something well, or losing enough weight that clothes start feeling loose, or something.

Everything feels so blah.

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Registered: 02-19-2004
In reply to: trist_e
Thu, 07-01-2004 - 1:11pm
I can empathize with you. I think I could start every sentence with if. If only I had some energy, I'd clean the house, if only I had some energy, I'd take a walk...

I'm tired of being tired all the time. Like you, when I HAVE to do things, I get them done, but other time's it's such a chore to do anything. I've been on meds for the last 3 years, and they have helped somewhat. Intellectually I know I should get out, exercise, and it will give me more energy, and help me with losing weight, but then I think, it is such a hassle to put other clothes on, then I'll have to come back and take a shower, etc. I take a Yoga class twice a week and I love it when i am there, but mustering up the energy to get there, well, it just seems unsurmountable.