AN INCH CLOSER! TRIGGERS!

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Registered: 05-12-2003
AN INCH CLOSER! TRIGGERS!
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Sat, 07-17-2004 - 4:42pm
Every day I am here I am getting closer to taking my life. I saw my T Kara yesterday and her advice was to go to the ER if I feel I am in danger of taking my life. I hate feeling like this and I am scared that I will take my life. Yesterday my husband Irv and I went out to dinner with our neighbor Joyce and her son Mike. It was a nice get together and after dinner Mike and I played video games at my house. So I had fun I guess for two hours while trying to think about ending my life. I came out to my parent's today and I am at the library now writing this but will be going back soon so they don't worry about me. I told gram today that I am the closest I have been to taking my life before acting on it. When I get back to my parent's maybe I'll give Kara a call. Last weekend no one responed to my cry for help why should this weekend be any different. I just needed to vent and also let you wonderful ladies know that if you don't from me there is a very real possibility that I ended my life. I can't see through the darkness that is overwhelming me. Love and Hugs Andrea
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Registered: 02-23-2004
Sat, 07-17-2004 - 4:53pm
You should go to the emergency room right away. The fact that you are telling people how you feel is an indication that some part of you does want to live. People will help you right away in the ER. I was feeling the same way you are just a few weeks ago, and I went to the hospital and was admitted right away. I'm SO glad I went, because I realise now that I definitely don't want to die. It makes so much sense when you are so down, but trust me when I say that things can and will get better. Just go to the ER.

(((((Hugs)))))

Elise
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Registered: 03-27-2003
Sat, 07-17-2004 - 8:49pm
Andrea, I'm so sorry you're having such a bad time. I just wanted to let you know that I do care about you and really, really want you to be safe. Please do take your T's advice if you feel you are in danger...and it sounds like you may be. You can get through this...but you need to get whatever help it takes to keep you alive. Please do that... I'll be thinking about you and praying that you are all right,

Rose

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Registered: 11-18-2003
Sun, 07-18-2004 - 1:14am
Andrea,

Eather go to the ER or admit yourself into a institution..

no one can tell you what to do but it is obvious that you want to live if you didnt you would not be posting here....

go to the hospitol they can give you the help that you need.
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Registered: 03-31-2003
Sun, 07-18-2004 - 10:25am
Andrea, I can't tell you how happy I am to see your name here. I was so worried about you. I must agree with the others and your T that you need to go the the Emerg if you really feel you can't cope. Does Irv know how you are feeling? How about your parents? I understand that you don't want to be a burden, but how can they help if they don't know? And they would feel terrible, I'm sure, if you killed yourself w/o giving them the chance to help and to show you that they love you.

The question I ask myself is: Do I want to die or do I want the pain to end? Of course, the answer is that I want to live w/ no pain, and sometimes that seems impossible. But you are capable of happiness--hold on to those 2 hours that you enjoyed and know that you will have more of them.

Please, Andrea, take good care of yourself and do what you need to do to get well.

Love, Nicola

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Registered: 03-22-2003
Sun, 07-18-2004 - 11:49am

Andrea!

*hugs