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AN INCH CLOSER! TRIGGERS!
| Sat, 07-17-2004 - 4:42pm |
Every day I am here I am getting closer to taking my life. I saw my T Kara yesterday and her advice was to go to the ER if I feel I am in danger of taking my life. I hate feeling like this and I am scared that I will take my life. Yesterday my husband Irv and I went out to dinner with our neighbor Joyce and her son Mike. It was a nice get together and after dinner Mike and I played video games at my house. So I had fun I guess for two hours while trying to think about ending my life. I came out to my parent's today and I am at the library now writing this but will be going back soon so they don't worry about me. I told gram today that I am the closest I have been to taking my life before acting on it. When I get back to my parent's maybe I'll give Kara a call. Last weekend no one responed to my cry for help why should this weekend be any different. I just needed to vent and also let you wonderful ladies know that if you don't from me there is a very real possibility that I ended my life. I can't see through the darkness that is overwhelming me. Love and Hugs Andrea

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Elise
Rose
Eather go to the ER or admit yourself into a institution..
no one can tell you what to do but it is obvious that you want to live if you didnt you would not be posting here....
go to the hospitol they can give you the help that you need.
The question I ask myself is: Do I want to die or do I want the pain to end? Of course, the answer is that I want to live w/ no pain, and sometimes that seems impossible. But you are capable of happiness--hold on to those 2 hours that you enjoyed and know that you will have more of them.
Please, Andrea, take good care of yourself and do what you need to do to get well.
Love, Nicola
Andrea!
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