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Going to Hospital
| Thu, 07-29-2004 - 10:45pm |
I don't know why I'm even posting. I get on to try to post replies---but I just seem to not have any helpful advice at all. Then I hate to post for myself because I'm not 'helping' anyone else. But right now I need to talk to people who understand. My latest depressive episode has been going on for weeks now and I have begun all the intense housecleaning that always comes right before my suicide attempts. (I'm a perfectionist and can't imagine dying without the house being perfect) Good grief! I'm insane as well as depressed.
Anyway---I saw my therapist yesterday and things are better with her so I really let her know how bad it is right now. That led to my pdoc calling today and talking to me for a while. I finally agreed to go into the hospital tomorrow and they are going to try to change my meds again under a controlled situation. He promised no ECT and I trust him (plus I have to agree---they won't do it without my consent).
I really don't want to go, but I am having a harder and harder time dealing with everything. I fall apart over every little thing and my eyes burn all the time from all the crying.
There is suppose to be a bed available tomorrow, so I'm going over in the morning.
Well, I guess that's all. Debbie

(((((((((((((((((((((((Debbie))))))))))))))))))))))))))
Sweetie, I am sending you lots of big hugs
Best of luck at the hospital...I'll be thinking of you,
Rose
Besides you posted to Rose, I saw how sweet you are! You are always caring.
Now is the time for you to take some caring. From the folks here and at the hospital. It is ok, to take the hugs from us, we of all people understand the pain that is inside.
As for wanting to clean, not insanity that makes you do that. You are a considerate human, and although it is misguided, the reasons are not so good, you are just being true to yourself. Come here and do that (my apartment could use you!), but don't think for a second that I would let anyone take my friend Deb from me. *sticks out tongue* Selfish, I know, to want to keep you, but that is how I feel. I am not alone in this.
Sending hugs and good thoughts your way.
Take care,
Lisa-)
I will keep you in my thoughts while you are gone.
Alanna
I am happy to hear that oyu are taking care of you...
I know that the hospital sucks but at least you are doing something that is going to help you..
I am sending oyu a ton of hugs and I will be holding you in my thoughts
Good luck and please post to us as soon as you get home so that way we know how you are doing..
By the way dont worry about posting to vent when we are at our lowest times it is hard ot help anyone else I am more than positive that everyone here understands considering we have all been there before...
Good luck and take care of you
Erin
Deb!
Im sending a bunch of Pocket Hugs for you to take with you!
*hugs