today couldnt get anyworse

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Registered: 08-30-2004
today couldnt get anyworse
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Tue, 08-31-2004 - 5:01pm
august 31,2004

today couldnt get any wosre i swear! its like nothing is workin for me! it feels like my meds arnt workin ( the 10,00 that im taking).my anxitey is really bad and i cant sit still! its like im waiting for somethign bad to happen! i have had this fellin all day that something really really bad will happen to me and im just sittin here patiently waiting.

i had a logn day at work and everyone was on my case it felt! like i was the bad guy and everyone is out to get me. when i got home today i decided to read some of my bible. thinkin that that would help the nerve and give me something to ponder on ! but nope didnt work. it just seemed that any scripture that i had read wasnt a very good one!

so im here right now and im realizing that my one mistake i did today was wake up! wat opening my eyes and doing something! the world is so easy to deal with when your a sleep ! if i could have one wish it would be to "SLEEP AND NEVER WAKE-UP AGAIN UNTIL ITS SAFE" ~elisaebth~

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Registered: 04-07-2003
Tue, 08-31-2004 - 5:11pm

(((((((((((((((((((( Elizabeth)))))))))))))))))))))))


There isn't anything worse than a day that just won't get any better.

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Registered: 08-30-2004
Tue, 08-31-2004 - 6:56pm
thank you! thank you for ready my mesasge and thank you for writeing me back! this is like my new life line! im so comfuse and upset these days that i dont know wat to do anymore. i think that right now there is too much that is goin on in my life for a 17 year old gurl . but that god i will be 18 in october!:)

im ingaged and thats not strees full but this wedding is hug and everythign that i have been doin. and my mom is really really sick! shes dying! shes got overian cancer which killed her mom as well! and its hard i have a little sister that is 9 in september and 2 addopted kids too! brother 9 and lil sister 5! and haveing to take care of them and my mom while going to college and workin 2 jobs its so hard! and with my depression and my ptsd, it makes it to hard!this stress is just building up and its gettin worse ans worse,

and it seems like everyday there is a new probelm and i dont knwo where to put it my heart, my head, my body is too over loaded! i just give up! i cutt my self again for the 1st tiem in 6 months! its my excape! my pain and stress releiver! but i cant turn to that cause i dont want to be in that hopsital again! i just dont knwo wat to do! GOD GAVE UP ON ME!!!*crys** ....~elisabeth~.....
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Registered: 04-07-2003
Tue, 08-31-2004 - 9:49pm

(((((((((((((((((Elizabeth))))))))))))))))))))


I think if I were in your shoes, I would contact Catholic Charities and see if they don't have some programs that will help you.