trigger-whats taken me here.....

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Registered: 09-01-2004
trigger-whats taken me here.....
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Thu, 09-02-2004 - 9:38am
I am not sure if I'll trigger anyone with "my life story" but just to be on the safe side. So I am not sure where to start. I guess my unhappness started in high school when I was 16 and found out I couldn't drive. I have a vision probelm which is now resulting in loosing my vision. My vision I think is the root of my depression.

Over the summer I attended a place for people who are blind and vision impared. This place prepares you for college and adjusting to your "blindness". I am glad I went it was a good start for me to understanding my blindness. While I was there I met someone. After a few days of knowing him, I slept with him. If I'd been feeling better about myself there would have been no way I woould have done this. I thought that doing that would make my depression go away. It didnt, and to be honest thats not the only reason I did it. Anyway I am having a really hard time comming past this. I can't let it go. I've talked about it a little in therapy but still I am holding on to whatever that was between us. A relationship is out of the question. He is with someone and I am not in any shape to be in one right now.

I am just looking for someone to relate to what i am going through. I am 19 and its alot to deal with. Loosing my vision has to be the hardest thing I am facing right now. I would just like advice on how to let go of the summer situation.

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Registered: 07-01-2004
Thu, 09-02-2004 - 9:55am

Accepting decisions as a adult is one of the toughest things to face.