new here and dealing with depression

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Registered: 09-03-2004
new here and dealing with depression
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Sun, 09-05-2004 - 1:33pm
Hi my name is Elaine and I am a mother of 2, sexually abused as a child and have been diagnosed as clinically depressed about 2 years ago and was put on a medication (sorry cant recall the name) and about 3 months ago I was switched to Effexir 150mg a day and was told to go to counseling therapy but i havent yet swallowed my pride to make the appointment yet...I was a single mom up until 5 months ago and that had me stressed to the max all the time...In April of 2004 I had to have surgery for an ovarian cyst and tubiligation. I met a wanderful man about 3 weeks later and since then we have decided to get married...the problem is I have decided that i want one more child...cant afford adoption, or reverse my operation and am dying inside for another child... this has me deeply depressed all the time. I also find it hard to keep a job and my family looks down on me for that.. I try to keep up on my medication...am also to be taking Lorazepam for anxiety..but i dont want to sleep all the time...I know this is a jumbled mess of a whatever it is....i am deeply confused and just want someone to talk to i guess...


elaine

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Registered: 04-18-2003
Sun, 09-05-2004 - 7:29pm

Hi Elaine,


I think these sort of unobtainable or impossible irreversable situations are the ones that affect us most deeply. It's a kind of death in a way to finalize something so completely. Then to find an awakening urge that we are unable to act on is terribly confusing.


Of course there

prodi_gal

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Registered: 04-07-2003
Sun, 09-05-2004 - 7:31pm

((((((((((((((((((((((((Elaine)))))))))))))))))))))


welcome to our board.