i am mentally exhausted

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Registered: 09-01-2004
i am mentally exhausted
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Tue, 09-07-2004 - 11:40am
Hi, this is my first time writing about this so bear with me. I am 29,(i have a b-day in 25 days) and i am truly miserable. I have 2 great kids and i decided after 7 years that i wanted to go back to school. I am currently living with my mom because of some bad financial situations(i lost my job) and now i am working part time. I am as unhappy as i can be and i dont know why. People tell me that they would love to be me, i am attractive and on the outside i appear extremely independent and confident but on the inside there is insecurity everywhere. I wake up hating to start the day, scared that it will be worse than the day before. Some days it is so bad that i just cry all day for no reason and i am starting to shut my kids out and i hate that. I have attempted suicide 2x and failed and my parents are really not that supportive like i need them to be.I keep dating loser after loser. My frineds have no idea about what is going on with me and i feel like i have no one to talk to about this. it just seems to be getting worse, can anyone give me some advice how to deal???
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Registered: 07-01-2004
Wed, 09-08-2004 - 5:01pm

Welcome to the board!