Dont want to live anymore (trigs)
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Dont want to live anymore (trigs)
| Sun, 09-12-2004 - 9:41am |
I guess the title says it all. I dont know what else to say. The circumstances in my life right now, well they arent good. I should have been a hermit because Im not good with people, and there are too many flaws. I am taking medication but I dont think this has to do with medication. I just want to give up no matter if I had good meds or not. Its not just about the chemicals in my brain, thats just a small portion of it. If that was fixed then I believe I would still feel this way. The things going on hurt too much. Ive tried to find therapists or counsellors, etc. They seem to be jerks, all of them. They interrupt and seem not to care about what they are doing. I get up each morning, whether its a good day or not, wondering why I had to get up. Why couldnt I fall asleep and never wake up. I try to reach out but get rejected or ignored. I dont know what else to do. I just want to give up, I dont think this is worth it. Thanks for listening. I hope I didnt bring anyone down or triggered any sad feelings for others.

Did you know tonight at 7 there is a support chat? I am new here and have been lurking for only a few days. I am so glad to have found this site. I am confident it will be a great support to me in my keeping well. 'Reaching-out' I only wish I had known of such a thing in my early days. (I may have not had to be hospitalized so often.)
I was first hospitalized & diagosed in my early 20's. What a difficult time it was back then. I since then learned how to accept & cope with my illness. First off was coming to the realization that my illness was just 'a part' of me. Not who I am. I had to change my perception. (lots of check-ins)
A big part of living with my illness, is having a good support network, I can depend on, when my triggers, (symptoms) tend to creep up. I have learned to identify behaviors and what anxiety is like for me. & have learned a number of copeing skills through cognitive behavior therapy and applying just the few techniques that help me to overcome and live sucessfully day to day.
idreamy - please keep reaching-out, and keep searching for that POSITIVE dream that lies ahead of you. Don't let your stresses or trouble get the best of you.
what's 'idreamy' ?? " a kitten or a tiger " Sometime US WOman, have to find our OWN innerVOICE!!!
I look forward to reading your posts. & do hope you find what works best for you.
~gg
I for one think you are a lovely human and I look forward to seeing your posts on the board. I am worried about you.
I have not been doing to well, I was afraid to be triggered, honestly. But you are an important member of the board, and I really care about you.
Sending hugs and good thoughts your way.
Take care,
Lisa-)
Co-CL Depression Support
I had feel like you so many times, but i look to my daughter and i keep going. just to see her grow and see how wonderful her life coud be. I don't want to miss that . I also keep my hopes up that someday I get rid of this depression and be very happy like you this is GOING to happen just don't give up JUST YET PLEASE !!!!
love .......vivian
Love, Nicola
You know For about the past two weeks I've been feeling the same way, I feel like nobody ever hears or listens to me either, it's so difficult I know. The only time or place anyone really understands me are here on these message boards. I beleive I have posted to you on the message board Ray Of Light, I was lurking and thought I'd post here too. I'm sorry you feel so down, I'm always here to help if you need someone. Please remember that you are an important part of this world, and you have alot more worth than you think :o). Hold your head up and try to stay strong my friend. Your in my thoughts.
Donna (hoogy2004)