I think I am on the brink of depression

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Registered: 09-12-2004
I think I am on the brink of depression
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Sun, 09-12-2004 - 7:53pm
I have always been considered a very upbeat person. But the last three years have taken a toll on me. My husband almost died of heart problems(suddenly and we are in our 40s) At the same time, my only child was in college and being wilder than ever. He got arrested twice while my husband was in critical condition. My trips between jail and the hospital were not fun. We made it past that- but then six months later my husband lost his life time job and still hasnt' got a job- but again- we are surviving that.

My son seemed to be settling down- I knew he wasn't perfect- but he was going to college, working etc.

And now the present- my husband still doesn't have a permanent job, things are going horrible where I work( and I am the the break winner), and my son got arrested today for his second DUI. I have been gaining weight the last month and seem down anyways- today - just made me want to say the hell with it. I am sick of being the strong one and forgiving everybody whether it is their fault or not. Sick of paying the bills, sick of worrying about losing my job, sick of worrying about my son being a loser his whole life, sick of trying to be the cheerful one as my husband is still upset about his job.

I know for now I am having a weak moment and I will be okay. But I am thinking of going to the doctors- because I really havent' been myself for awhile

thanks for listening!
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Registered: 03-22-2003
Mon, 09-13-2004 - 8:13am

Hi and Welcome!


With all you have had going on in your life sweetie, you certainly have a reason to be having a hard time!

*hugs