I nearly hurt myself just now

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Registered: 08-30-2004
I nearly hurt myself just now
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Thu, 09-16-2004 - 1:42pm
Hello Everyone! I nearly hurt myself just now. But i think of all of you here. And it helped me.

My friend lied to me. The friend I have posted about on "life and birthday", "paralysed with fear" and "hope to end".

He called me , we had an agreement that he calls me every night, so that he can check up if i am alright. BUT yesterday, at around 8:49pm, he called very early. Usually he calls me at around 12am until 1am.

He said he was going to fall sick and that he needs to rest for the night, so i told him to rest and put down the phone. But i find it strange that he sounded very happy when he said his "bye bye" to me.

So i called again to check up if he is alright at 12am. And i was shocked to find out that he went to his friend's house. A guy friend. BUt i think he went to a girl's house. BUt hey...that's not my problem ,its his problem that is he violates our religion and have sex with a girl he likes.

What i am saying is...tell me the truth. Don't lie to me!

He DID! I am shocked! (I mean if he is really at a girl's house). I am shocked that he lied upright in my face. He was so honest. He abides by our religion. Now , He lies , he cheats, he betrayed me. Everything that is so strange, he had changed.

I am being lied to! Because of him, I nearly killed myself. I nearly silted my wrist.

I am just sad that when i send messages to his mobile phone (mobile phone to mobile phone, Known as SMS), saying i am suicidal, and asking him to call me, he did not reply. IF it was last time, he would call me immediately. I need help. I called the hotline. It was busy. I could not get through.

I really don't know what to do! HE LIED TO ME! I wish to end it all next week if he does not give a good explanation or he avoids my calls and if he does not want to meet up with me to talk about it! I am glad to have all of you here listening to me. I have no one else. And he knows that. next week, my time would be up. Hopefully, i can go without regrets.

iVillage Member
Registered: 03-22-2003
Thu, 09-16-2004 - 2:02pm

Im soooo Glad that thinking of us, stopped you from doing anything sweetheart!

*hugs