Never Ends, Does It?

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Registered: 03-28-2003
Never Ends, Does It?
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Sat, 09-18-2004 - 9:42pm
My day was good and I should be in a great mood. I had a 3 hour lunch with my former therapist turned friend and we had a wonderful time. I came home and read for a while and my DH came home in a wonderful mood from his golf tournament. Eventually DH and I went to dinner and then he took me to the mall and bought me a bunch of stuff from Bath and Body Works. I should be happy---yet even while we were shopping I could feel the darkness taking over again. How nice of it to take that 5 hour break today. I guess I should be satisfied with that. It's the longest that I have felt half way decent in a few months. But why can't it last? Just venting guys---sorry---Debbie
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Registered: 03-27-2003
Sat, 09-18-2004 - 10:42pm
Debbie, I'm glad you got that glimpse of happiness...but so sorry it won't seem to last. I can definitely relate...no matter what I do, the "darkness" seems to keep coming back over and over. Something my former therapist told me that helped a tiny bit was that there is no "should" to feelings...sounds kind of silly...but I guess I was feeling guilty and bad over the fact that I wasn't happy when I "should" be.

I so hope that you'll get another break from the darkness very soon, and that it will last for a long time...you are such a wonderful person and you deserve to feel even better than halfway decent...

Hugs,

Rose

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Registered: 03-22-2003
Sun, 09-19-2004 - 1:22pm

Hi Debbie,


Im glad you had sooo much "good feelings" today,

*hugs