Can't go on
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Can't go on
| Wed, 09-22-2004 - 4:47pm |
I just can't go on. I'm unemployed (no insurance, so can't afford my Zoloft); my 14 y.o. cat died 1 1/2 yrs ago; I had to get a roommate and I HATE having roommates but I can't afford living by myself any longer, and she's all ready causing problems; I'm very lonely, haven't dated in years; tried to join a new church and I was nothing more than a fly on the wall; and to top it off, I'm temping at a place where my immediate supervisor is the last boyfriend I had. He requested me specifically from the agency because he knew I was available; I didn't think it would be a problem. We are both professional and no one around here knows about our past, but it is killing me. I didn't think this would happen, but it did. I had to accept the assignment anyway because I could be denied unemployment benefits for turning down work, so of course that means I can't quit it. I don't know how long the job will be going on, but it could be 3 months or more.
I'm also trying to lose weight; gained 25 lbs since my cat died; I've got a charity ball to go to (I volunteer for the local Humane Society and that's what it is for), and I can't decently fit into the one dressy outfit I have. Can't go out and buy anything new either.
I'm a failure at life (it also seems I've been job hunting forever) and I just can't keep doing this. Don't anyone tell me, "Look at the bright side." or "Look at it this way," or anything else useless like that.

Hi and welcome!
Any chance that since you volunteer at the Humane Society you can adopt another cat? I know its never the same but I bet it would be really special for another cat not to miss out on someone as caring as you if you miss your last cat so deeply.
Is working for you old friend killing you because he is being mean or is it just hard to be around him? If its the former then I would certainly think you can talk to the Temp supervisor and request another location. Thats not turning down work, just asking for relocation.
*hugs
Oh I almost forgot to say, a good outlet for depression is walking or excercising. Its great for your body, body image and self esteem. Try to find some time in the day to do something active like that. Take care HUGS