Trying this again, Newbie w/ ???'s

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Trying this again, Newbie w/ ???'s
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Tue, 09-28-2004 - 2:38pm
I tried to post this before but my modem went down : ( so here goes again...........

How do you know when it's time for meds?

This is the thing, I have chronic pelvic pain, It is believed I have endometriosis and I see my dr's frequently, gyn & family practice. I feel like their probably thinking, oh here she is again even though I doubt that is true. I've gotten to the point where I am almost afraid to ask for meds for fear of looking like a nut but I know these things are real.

Last time I saw my family practice dr was about a month ago for sleeping issues. She wanted me to see a behavioral consultant which I didn't do because I don't want to see any more dr's : ( I know, irrational but just how I feel. At the time we believed that I was having anxiety issues and hence my sleeping problems but recently my anxiety has turned into depression so of course I'm sleeping now.

I've battled with depression off and on in my life so I know when it comes. Many times it will eventually pass which is what I am hoping for again this time.

I feel like a walking downer, even when I'm laughing I feel that emptiness in my gut. I told dh last night I haven't felt this alone in a very long time. I had a massive breakdown last night, so bad I hid my face from my dh under a blanket. I know part of me was trying to hold back and not completly lose it and the odd thing is even after a good cry I felt no better.

I hate feeling this way, All I want to do is rot in bed and be left alone. I feel abandonded by my friends yet when they call I don't want to talk to them. I feel like I'm shutting down in that I just don't want to talk about it but I know I should.

I don't know what else to say, guess I'm shutting down again. Thanks for listening and any advice you might have I'd really appreicate.

Danielle

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Tue, 09-28-2004 - 4:44pm
I'd say the time is NOW. I wouldn't worry about seeing another Dr. Just talk to your primary care Dr first and see what he/she says. They can start you off on something and you can go from there. It's not easy to deal depression and sometimes we just need a little help and there is nothing wrong with that.

I hope you can get some help and feel good about it.

Ilka



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Wed, 09-29-2004 - 7:48pm

Hi Danielle!


What AD meds do for the most part is help your body readjust the level of chemicals in your brain to keep your emotions from being so out of control.

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