Is it possible..........
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Is it possible..........
| Tue, 09-28-2004 - 7:30pm |
To suffer from depression much of your life and live with it without really knowing it is there?
What I mean is this, I've been like this for as long as I can remember, I spent 30 days in the hospital as a teenager for depression. I wouldn't say that I am always depressed or even sad but at least a few times a year I go through a major depresion episode that might last a couple of days or longer.
I'm really good at hiding things, I learned that quickly as a child, I only allow people to see what I want them to so this could be easily missed by friends & family. It wasn't that I couldn't talk to my mom because I could but there were some things I just kept to myself like when I was sad.
Is what I am asking possible?

Yes, its possible for one to live that way.
I was 3 and there has never been a time when I haven't suffered from depression.
I am a walking basket case, but all I ever hear from friends and co workers is what
a go getter I am, how I am so pulled together, blah blah blah. HA! If they only knew
all the things going on in my head. I think that the key is to find one person, or
a few, that you can let your defenses down with. As long as someone knows, I feel
better. because then the burden of hiding my true feelings is lessened. The problem
with depression in this day and age, despite what all the Tv shows and magazines and
books tell us, is that it makes you look unstable. We're all supposed to be perfect, you know. There is so much pressure to be perfect in our society. Any kind of mental or emotional issues are considered a no-no, because then we aren't the superwoman that the world tells us we should be. I am so tired of this crap, that I am on a rampage to just let go and act how I feel. It's not a popular view, but for me it is important, since I have been living with repression since I was tiny. I wish good luck to you