Drifting.......(Trigger)

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Registered: 10-12-2004
Drifting.......(Trigger)
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Fri, 10-15-2004 - 2:04am
I feel like I am drifting on the ocean, with no direction and no lifejacket. I feel like I am in suppened animation. Nothing I do anymore seems to make sense in my life. I am truly friendless. I am sad and lost. I feel so alone that it hurts.

I am just not sure who or what I am anymore. I have so many conflicting thoughts running through my mind everyday. I have no answers and I don't even know where to begin to look for them.

callie

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Fri, 10-15-2004 - 2:58pm
Alone is one of the worst feelings. I've never minded being alone, I just hate feeling alone.

I don't know what your conflicting thoughts are, but maybe you could try writing them down. Maybe if you saw them on paper you might be able to make some sense of them.

Do you have a job, Callie? Do you go to school? I know people in these places aren't always what you're looking for, but try to use them as barriers to the loneliness. You don't have to reveal anything about yourself if you don't want to. Let others do the talking, ask questions, be interested in them. It does help just to hear about the lives of other people sometimes.

Find out if there is an Emotions Anonymous group in your area. If there's a mental health hospital or clinic, they usually have such therapy groups (and they are usually free). You really aren't alone; it just feels that way and it's a horrible feeling.

Keep in touch. We at least have each other here. HUGS.

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Fri, 10-15-2004 - 8:11pm

Ditto on the writing your feelings down! After years of resisting keeping a journal, during this current bout of depression I finally caved in and bought a notebook and started journaling (almost) every morning. Being the perfectionist that I am, writing freestyle was initally difficult, but I now just write whatever comes to mind, how I'm feeling, what my thoughts are, etc. Often just getting them down on paper gets them out of my head. Then, when I'm feeling up to it, I make a gratitude list every day, even if it's that I'm grateful I have a place to live, grateful that I found this board, whatever. It's hard to do consistently but I must admit that when i do it I feel better, and clearer about what is really going on.


hang in there - you are not alone


lots of hugs,

peace and love,


just_a_big_kid


Sue

peace and love,

just_a_big_kid