I don't think I like my new pdoc

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Registered: 03-25-2003
I don't think I like my new pdoc
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Thu, 10-21-2004 - 9:45pm

Okay, I don't know where else to put this. I considered posting this on the Depression Support board, and I probably will end up going there with this - I dunno.

Anyway, I started seeing a new pdoc when I turned over custody of sweetfeets to his dad. I've been on meds for the depression and the anxiety attacks I've been having b/c of this situation - as well as my current bankruptcy and some other issues....Anyway, today I went in for a quick meds check-up (late appt., should have only lasted 15 min's, just to make sure the meds I'm on and the doses are relative to my state of mind). She asks me questions, I'm giving her "yes" and "no" and "I guess so" answers. Well, this does not satisfy her one bit, so she starts digging - going into areas I'd rather avoid alltogether. I'm trying to distract the conversation from these topics, but unfortunately I'm not the one with a phsych degree under my belt so I fell short in the *head* games. Mind you, I was completely calm, casual, and mellow when I went into this session. 30 minutes later (over twice the time this session should have ran), I'm bawling my eyes out like a little school girl, pissed off to no end at this woman, wanting to tell her "I was just FINE until I came here!!!!!" aaaahhhhhhhrrrrrrgggggghhhhhhhhhh. Now here I am, after nearly a month of being "somewhat okay emotionally", I'm a wreck again! And to top it all off, all that came out of her evaluation is that the meds/doseage I'm currently on is okay, so she wrote out three months of refills and sent my sorry sad self on my way. ~sigh.

Thanks for letting me vent.



"I'll try" is just a noisy way of not doing something.

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Fri, 10-22-2004 - 8:48am

Sadie: I am sorry you got upset, but after over 2 years in therapy, in my opinion, the only reason I am getting better is because my therapist and I are uncovering the things that I tried to bury all my life. My old system of burying anything upsetting all came to an ugly head back in 2002, when what should have been mild stress at work about put me over the edge, spiraling downward and without going to get help, I may not be alive today.

So for me, I am finding out I need to uncover so many things from childhood and such, and I am 48 now, so that was a long time ago.

Meds are great, and they help with our chemical imbalances, as mood stabilizers and countless other good uses, but for me, until I find out why a 13 year old tried to commit suicide, binged on food, then on liquor, avoided conflict, buried emotions and whatnot, I will never be a totally healed person.

Again, this is just my opinion and God gave us free will, so we can all choose the path that is best for us. Take care, Josie.