Feeling down-even more(triggers)

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Registered: 08-30-2004
Feeling down-even more(triggers)
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Wed, 10-27-2004 - 10:06am
Hello everyone!

I did not make it to the psychiatrist appointment on the 18th...,but i have another appointment on 1st nov. ,next monday. I hope i can make it.

I feel even more down, my "estranged" counsellor called me and said "i have resigned!"

I am feeling so down recently, not being able to make it to the appointment and my friends treating me this way, especially that guy friend, I am really sad, feel very sad, i cannot do anything at all. I have no one that loves me. Dad treats me(postings from 31 august) this way and my younger sister never loves me.

Now, I just want some one to love me. To support me. Please pray for me. Please pray that i have someone who loves me in my life.

Thank you!

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Wed, 10-27-2004 - 10:34am
Kathryn...the one person who needs to love you is you. When you love yourself, you'll look less toward others to fill that need. When you're depressed it seems like everyone is down on you. Depression skews perceptions so badly. That's why it's so important to get better so you can see life for what it really is.

Can you find another counselor? Sounds like the one you had wasn't filling the bill. Talk to your psychiatrist and see if he/she can recommend someone.

Don't give up. There are people in this world who love you and who have yet to meet and love you. Don't give up on what's yet to come. HUGS

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Sat, 10-30-2004 - 12:10am
Hello Everyone.

I understand what you mean....but i have no one...not even friends.

I hope to have a network of support...that is friends that can support me and help me through this depressive state.

PLease help me....please pray for me that i have friends that can support me and have a boyfriend and a good father and sister.

ThAnK YOU!

I am trying hard to keep myself from hurting myself.

Please help me. thanks.

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Registered: 10-12-2004
Sat, 10-30-2004 - 9:12am
I will pray for you and I also hope you get the help you need. Please don't let those feelings of wanting to hurt yourself win. Find a suicide help line in your area to call. They are caring & compassionate people. I know because my daughter volunteers at one because she really cares. She is a model & could be out every weekend but spends most of them at the centre. Learn to love yourself and it will make it easier for others to love you. You are one of God's children and so you must be very special. He always loves you regardless of what you do.

You can't change your father or sister but you can get help to change you. It has taken me most of my life to accept that my Mom can't help me the way I need it. My Dad died when I was 18 and my Mom changed overnight from a supportive parent to an absent parent. She & her husband moved to Az. (I live in Canada) for 14 yrs while I raised my kids without her help. They moved back here for me to care for them when they got older. I always hoped she would change & love me, support me but I finally went to a counselor who said I had to make a choice. Accept her for what she is or cut her out of my life. Before I could make my final decision Mom almost died from a heart attack. I decided I wanted her in my life somehow. I am calmer and more able to deal with my problems now that I have accepted what she is and that she won't change.

Please remember that our prayers are with you.