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Anxious
| Thu, 10-28-2004 - 6:07pm |
I am feeling guilty and anxious about everything in my life right now. I just switched my daughter to a different pre school because of problems with the first. I didn't check out the new one very well because it seemed so much better than the last one, and it turns out it was worse. Now I am pulling her out entirely untill kindergarten. I feel like I am totally jerking her around. She recently was bitten in the face by a dog and spent 12 hours in the hospital, and I feel like she doesn't need anymore stress but I keep adding to it. She is also still adjusting to having a baby brother. She seems fine and hubby says I'm doing ok, but I feel like I am just jerking her around. We are looking to buy a house right now. We found one I really liked and when I found out we couldn't afford it I broke down crying and was ready to give up and just keep renting. I feel like my mother and mother in law are both just invasions in my life, and every time they make suggesstions I feel like they think I am making all the wrong decisions. Sometimes I really think I do make all the wrong decisions. I had kids too young, got married when I wasn't ready, still haven't got over some horrible experiences from my teenage years (only a few years ago). Deep in my heart I know I am a good person, good mom, and hubby is so supportive. But I can't stop feeling guilty and anxious and crying about little things. I want to be happy and enjoy my babies and my man. I want to trust myself. I quit smoking five years ago - it was so easy I thought I'd never want a cigarette again, but I am fighting the craving daily now. I also have no friends (haven't had close friends since I got pregnant with my daughter at 17 and stopped 'hanging out'), and I don't know how to make friends. Sorry I'm rambling, there's just so much going on, it's difficult to express how I feel. How can I learn to trust myself and stop focusing on my mistakes?
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| Wed, 11-03-2004 - 8:49am |
just hang in there have you went to see your doct. he could probally help. I just recently recieved custody of my two neices and sufffer from panic attacks. It does get better.
