learning that you are worth it?
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learning that you are worth it?
| Tue, 11-09-2004 - 4:23pm |
How does a person learn/believe/buy into feeling that they are worthy of anything in this life? I just can't seem to figure out how or why I could be worthy of anything in my life. The only reason I live is for my kids. Sometimes I try to tell myself that for my kids that I should find reasons why life could or would be better and that I should find a way to stand up for myself. Something as simple as getting a massage or even waking my dh up in the night just seems unattainable to me (not to mention anything even bigger than those things). I just absolutely start to crumble and feel like I am going to go into a major panic attack if I even look like I might be trying to do something for myself. Would I survive crumbling and having a major panic attack? I don't know, and I just don't feel like I am worth it. I feel so immobilized within myself and without being able to feel worthy of even the smallest things, I really feel like there is no reason to go on living. 20 years of therapy and 19 years of meds, several hospitalizations, just don't seem to getting me anywhere. I love my kids more than anything in this world!!!! The thought of never seeing them again keeps me going but if I can't figure out how to survive until nature takes it course, I don't think that I can even be of anything good to my kids. Anyways, just wondering how those of you have gotten to a place of feeling worthy of "living and standing up for yourself" got to that point. Thanks.
Sandra.
Sandra.

Hi there
Yes I have gotten to that place.
*hugs