broken heart

iVillage Member
Registered: 06-30-2003
broken heart
2
Tue, 11-09-2004 - 9:09pm
Well girls, sorry I haven't been around much but I tend

to shut down when I'm down.

I have talked about my husband many times as being a rock

for me. The last couple years I was so bad that I held on

to what I thought was the one constant in my life.

The last few months as I have become strong once again I

have noticed he likes when I am weak and sad and isolated

and lonely. Talked to him about it to no avail. I wanted to

go to couple counselling but he kept putting it off.

In the beginning years of our marriage, I wasn't happy. We

split a few times but kept coming back together like a train

wreck. I settled about 5 years ago and figured I could just

exist...wrong. When my depression began at this time I just

figured it was me.

When two weeks ago I explained the boys were old enough to handle us apart

and it would be better for them instaed of existing with miserable parents.

That I didn't want to be miserable for the rest of my life and I didn't

want to end up hating him, he told me a secret he said had made him feel

bad for 10 years. Well he had a sexual encounter with my best friend...10

years ago. Thanks alot. Ended the only "friendship" I had and told him

it was over.

Now I am looking for a home as this is too expensive and a job to support

my kids and zoo. Can anyone say poopy!!!!!!!

I was a basket case but am on the road to saying poop on everyone. I can

do this...I will be fine.

Just send some good wishes for me and my boys ok?

Thanks for the vent

Alanna

iVillage Member
Registered: 04-07-2003
Tue, 11-09-2004 - 9:21pm

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Alanna)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))


I will say a bunch of prayers and send up positive thoughts.

iVillage Member
Registered: 03-22-2003
Wed, 11-10-2004 - 7:20am

(((((((((((((Alanna)))))))))))))))


Having been thru it last year, I know what you are going thru.

*hugs