broken heart
Find a Conversation
| Tue, 11-09-2004 - 9:09pm |
to shut down when I'm down.
I have talked about my husband many times as being a rock
for me. The last couple years I was so bad that I held on
to what I thought was the one constant in my life.
The last few months as I have become strong once again I
have noticed he likes when I am weak and sad and isolated
and lonely. Talked to him about it to no avail. I wanted to
go to couple counselling but he kept putting it off.
In the beginning years of our marriage, I wasn't happy. We
split a few times but kept coming back together like a train
wreck. I settled about 5 years ago and figured I could just
exist...wrong. When my depression began at this time I just
figured it was me.
When two weeks ago I explained the boys were old enough to handle us apart
and it would be better for them instaed of existing with miserable parents.
That I didn't want to be miserable for the rest of my life and I didn't
want to end up hating him, he told me a secret he said had made him feel
bad for 10 years. Well he had a sexual encounter with my best friend...10
years ago. Thanks alot. Ended the only "friendship" I had and told him
it was over.
Now I am looking for a home as this is too expensive and a job to support
my kids and zoo. Can anyone say poopy!!!!!!!
I was a basket case but am on the road to saying poop on everyone. I can
do this...I will be fine.
Just send some good wishes for me and my boys ok?
Thanks for the vent
Alanna

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Alanna)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
I will say a bunch of prayers and send up positive thoughts.
(((((((((((((Alanna)))))))))))))))
Having been thru it last year, I know what you are going thru.
*hugs