I should give up *triggers*

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Registered: 04-04-2003
I should give up *triggers*
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Wed, 11-10-2004 - 10:54pm
I am absolutely miserable. I have hit bottom since the weekend incident with the boyfriend, and that is hard to do considering I have been pretty far down for the past several months already. I spend every night alone. I go to the gym, but no one talks to eachother. I come home to my dog, who is great, but honestly the only thing I am living for right now. My job isn't what I hoped it would be when I started. I have nothing to look to for hope. I'm starting to really think there is none. All my friends are so far away and I feel like I am intruding by calling them upset all the time.

I just don't know what to do. How do I get out of this when everything is stacked against me? I may never know why my boyfriend cheated, or how long, or anything. I may never get to speak to him again and I didn't even hear it from him!

One friend tonight said it is my fault that I don't know anyone around here. He just doesn't understand how hard it is.

Can anyone help me?

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Registered: 07-01-2004
Thu, 11-11-2004 - 5:12pm
(((((Seya79)))) It is so hard when things don't turn out as you have planned. I feel like all of my life is not as I had hoped it would be. I don't even have a dog to come home to. But I do take one day at a time. It is the best I can do.

You are an intelligent woman, that is more than some people have. You have also found us. *wink* That is a good bit of fortune.

Not having friends is not your fault. Sometimes it is hard when feeling down to make connections. It is scary and difficult to find people that you are willing to trust and let in. Into the mind of a depressed person is a scary place. You will make peace with people near you. You will in time find people to find time with.

Share your thoughts with us. We are here for you.

Sending hugs and good thoughts your way.

Take care,

Lisa-)

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Thu, 11-11-2004 - 8:36pm
I agree with Lisa on this. Please dont give up. I can see right now that you are feeling very lonely, and I know what that feels like. It is so scary. I dont see my friends often & we never talk on the phone anyways. I have two goldfish but I suppose its not the same as a dog lol. You have lots to live for even though u may not see it right now, but u can get through this. I can think of two great things in your life right now: 1) Your doggy who loves u ;) 2) This msg board!

So start with these two things & work your way up. Set goals for yourself, start small so that u can gain your confidence again. Im so sorry to hear about your b/f. He is obviously not worth your while b/c he gave up someone amazing. I want to send u lots of HUGS & SMILES :) Please stay strong, lean on us while u need to & take care.