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Hi, I'm New. (Kind of Long)
| Thu, 11-11-2004 - 5:03pm |
Hi, my name is Angela. I am almost 25, my birthday is in about a month. I go to school full time.I live with my mom, and she is controlling and always wants things her way, she also expects me to clean the entire house by myself even though she lives here, as well as my 16 year old sister. I have a son, age two. Now, the reason I am here. I am very depressed. I don't ever get to go out because my mom won't watch my son and throws a huge fit when I leave him with my sister that I don't do that either. I get really tired of listening to her and it really stresses me out. Her boyfriend will watch him, but then my mom throws a fit about that too. I only get to do that when my mom wants me to take my sister somewhere, like a school function. I have only dated three guys ever and none of them were good guys. The first one stalked me for thirteen months, and we only went out for eight months. I attempted to get a restraining order but it was denied because he never hit me and he stayed in public places when he would follow me around. During the time I was being stalked, I met, dated and married my now ex husband. He is the father of my son, but my stalker ex is still trying to find me so that he can see me and "his son"(I only have one). I left my ex husband when my son was just nine days old because he beat me up really badly. I started school when my son was about six months old, and have been going ever since. I have a pretty big group of friends, but none of them drive and my car doesn't run, at least for a couple more weeks. After almost two years of not dating, I dated this guy from school. But he dumped me after six weeks, and then told my friends lies about me. Then just last week, there were these two guys making fun of me on the bus, among other encounters. Subequently I feel like men hate me because none of them ever treat me right. I don't get to date a nice guy, ever and I wish I could figure out what was wrong with me that this keeps happening. It seems like everyone I know has a nice guy for a bf, but I don't get one. Instead I constantly get treated badly by guys. Any help or suggestions would be appreciated.
Angela ~

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Angela ~
Angela~
Welcome to the board,
I know Christine recommended some thoughts that you could make to refute what you are thinking.
How many ways are there to percieve what has happened to me?? I've been stalked, beat up and lied to and about, why doe these things continue to happen?? That is why I say there is something wrong with me.
Building your self-esteem is a key issue for you right now.>>>>>
I don't know how, I have always been told negative things about myself.
Because if you don't believe you are ENTITLED to having someone treat you nicely, it won't happen.>>>>>
I do believe this, it still doesn't happen.
trying to get into some sort of therapy. That you might be able to do through the medical center at your school. And Meds if you aren't already on them. Again, through the medical services center at your school.>>>>>>>>
This would mean admitting out loud how I feel to someone at school, and I would get put away in a mental institution for that, I can't do that. There would be no one to take care of my son, and I can't miss school.
We can tell you what we would do or have done when we were in your shoes.>>>>>>>
What would you do in my shoes?? I feel so low, because no one ever treats me right.
In the meantime, welcome again to our board.>>>>>>>
Thank you.
Angela ~
Angela~
How many ways are there to percieve what has happened to me?? I've been stalked, beat up and lied to and about, why doe these things continue to happen?? That is why I say there is something wrong with me.
I can tell you that the fastest and quickest way to get things right in the world is to admit outloud that there is something wrong. Once you voice the problem, its like things crawl out of the woodwork to help you fix things.>>>>>>>>
Really?? because in my experience, every time I say something, I am just looked at as a whiner, and complainer, and I should just shut up.
so why take it from your mother, who is an adult?>>>>>>>
Because I live in her house, and she is very controlling.
"I am a good person to know, and if they don't want to know me or treat me right that is their loss" >>>>>>>>
Then why does it feel like my loss??
If I don't like it, I can turn around and walk away, and get someone to treat me better.>>>>>>>>>>
I can walk away but I don't get someone who treats me better. I don't have that kind of luck.
Angela ~
Angela~
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I am sorry,
Angela ~
Angela~
HI and welcome to the board!
I would just like to echo Trac's suggestions to you because they are wonderful (as always).
*hugs
UPDATE: My car is in the shop being fixed, it needed a whole new engine plus a bunch of other parts but I should have it on friday. Also, a friend of mine is going to give me information on programs that might be able to help me move out and get a place. School is almost over for this semester, and I can't wait even though the homework load is unbelievable. At least I can work on it, and for a bit, I don't have to think about things. My mom actually called me retarded and stupid the other night. I wish people on these boards would stop telling me I'm not depressed, that I'm only wallowing in self pity. How do they know, what gives them the right to say that? They don't live in my brain.
Angela ~
P.S. please someone respond to this post, I've felt ignored lately.
Angela~
Why is it so hard for me to get anyone to answer me on any board?? It's so easy for everyone else to get answers to their posts.
Angela ~
Angela~
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