For once, mom was wrong

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Registered: 12-31-1969
For once, mom was wrong
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Fri, 11-12-2004 - 8:39pm
I'm new here and lately, I've been feeling very depressed and down and out.

Whenever I felt this way, I used to go and talk to my mother who's in Heaven now.

She used to always smile and wave her hands and say, "Whatever is bothering you will always work it's way out." I keep telling myself this now and it just never seems to work itself out. Something is always depressing me to the point where I toss and turn at night and cry. It hurts more that mom is gone and I really feel alone.

I talked to a counselor and it didn't help. I just feel so scared and lonely and the future frightens me. I don't have a love interest nor any prospects for one. Matter of fact, I've been single so long, I'm kind of used to it. The one long term boyfriend I had was all wrong for me. I stayed with him because I didn't want to be alone but he was bad news. Eventually we parted and there hasn't been anyone since him.

So as I dig into my mid 30's I realize that all the advice mom gave me, she was wrong about this one. I don't mean to sound so glum but I can't help it. Itry to be strong and smile and frienly with others on the outside, but in the inside, I'm scared and lonely and miss my mom so much.

Thank you for reading and any encouragement you might have.

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Registered: 01-27-2004
Fri, 11-12-2004 - 9:37pm

(((((Liyahberry))))), welcome!