It has been awhile

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Registered: 11-29-2003
It has been awhile
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Mon, 11-15-2004 - 11:30am
Well first I guess I would like to say that I am new to all this. Not the depression just the message boards. Where to begin I'm not sure. I haven't seen my therapist since I got out of the hospital, that was in September. I was sick for the appointment I managed to get squeezed in for and now there is nothing available until December. And I found out that my psychiatrist no longer works there, yeah the week of my appointment they call me and say your appointment was cancelled because he no longer works there. I was like ok can I see someone else. They finally get me an appointment with one of the Drs. who saw me in the hospital and then the week I was supposed to see him he cancelled. The crappy part is, maybe its just me who thinks this but usually when I have appointments I don't end up having much to say. But lately, so much has happened since I have got out of the hospital.

I checked myself into the hospital labor day weekend, because earlier that week and sometime the week before I had lost control and tried to hurt myself. My fiance and I had been together for a little over two years. We were supposed to get married this May. He is a marine. When I was in the hospital I called him, left messages, and asked other family members to call him to tell him to call me. Towards the end of my second day there he finally called. Him not calling just hurt more. My guy friend who, my fiance's dad hated, even though he didn't know him, called me more than my fiance. My fiance's dad basically accused me of cheating on his son, which was not the case at all. My guy friend stopped me from hurting myself the second time around. Sorry this is all over the place there is just so much to say and explain. Two days after I got out of the hospital my fiance broke up with me. To this day I don't have an actual reason of why. That bothers me, to move on and put it all behind me I need to know why. Is that too much to ask? I guess I'll write more later. Feel free to ask me questions and offer advice. Thanks..
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Registered: 07-01-2004
Mon, 11-15-2004 - 7:20pm
((((klreardon))) Have some hugs. Welcome to the board. I certainly understand why you would be upset by all you have told us.

Breakups are hard no matter the circumstances. To break up a few days after you were out of the hospital makes me ponder about how much he knew or understood your situation. Stuff like what happened to you is scary and some people can not understand it, even in people who they say they love you.

I hate to say that many people are from the "snap out of it" mold, perhaps he was too. Some people can simply not understand the experience of needing to go to the hospital.

I for one am glad you are here.

Keep posting to us.

Welcome again.

Sending hugs and good thoughts your way.

Take care,

Lisa-)

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