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Registered: 11-29-2003
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Wed, 11-17-2004 - 12:42am
I'm losing my mind. I had the day off from work and I had planned to get a bunch of things accomplished. Well, did I? No. Instead, today I was a complete mess. I was happy one minute, upset the next, almost in tears and it kept going like that all day. And I am still like that. I feel like a complete failure and a huge disappointment. My fiance left me, I'm up to my head in bills, I'm losing my mind, I can't see my therapist til Dec and half the time I can't make my appointments due to work. I need to work. I can't miss work even though I kind of have been, but not that much. I'm scared of everything. I'm scared of losing my job, being broke, homeless. And my really good guy friend moved in with me. He is so awesome. He stopped me from taking the pills one night. He moved in and is basically taking over the half of the bills from my ex. But before he moved in I kind of didn't pay much I was in a I don't care mode. So the crappy part is that I did all this to myself. I just want to cry and disappear into a dark hole. I don't want to deal with any of this anymore. I want it all to stop and go away. I'm sorry, I'm just losing my mind and didn't know where else to turn. Its almost 1 am and this has been going on all day. I feel like I am such a bother to my guy friend, even though he is trying to be there for me right now. And quite honestly I feel like I am bothering all of you, and I feel guilty.
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Registered: 11-08-2004
In reply to: klreardon
Wed, 11-17-2004 - 12:58am
Sweetie, stop the madness you are creating for yourself right now....You are beating your self up. sometimes we are our own worste enemies......I know it all seems like such a mess right now, but you have to slow your mind....if you can meditate at all now would be the time....then just sit quietly and think some of these things through rationally....The past is just that the past we can niether change it or take back what has already happened...however we change live in the moment and change tomorrow....one step at a time...i know some of those sayings are so corny but believe me they work...one day at a time......you have made BIG steps to a better tomorrow already...you have a new roommate who is not only helping you out finacially but he sounds as if he really cares and is a true friend.....dont be so hard on yourself, take a nice bath with candles, relax if nothing else you get control of yourself and the rest will follow

mommadukesliz (liz)

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Registered: 03-22-2003
In reply to: klreardon
Wed, 11-17-2004 - 8:30am

Hey there Welcome!


You are not "bothering" us at all!

*hugs