Just to talk...

iVillage Member
Registered: 11-17-2004
Just to talk...
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Wed, 11-17-2004 - 8:35pm

THis is my first time trying this but I thought I'd give it a shot. I recently moved from my home town with my boyfriend who I must say is great. Its a small town and there isn't really any place to make friends or I don't exactly know how to go about it. Luckily his family is wonderful and I love his mom. I've never been close to my family so having his a a nice change. I recently went back on Lexapro. Some days are good and some are bad. I've had a lot of rough patches in the past. I am divorced form a man who downgraded and abused me. While at times I think I'm over that, I sometimes feel that those feelings cause or are the stem of some of my problems today. I'm a full time student and work full time. School makes me wait to quit but I feel I'll be a loser if I do or that I won't be good enough. Altough my life now is simple and I like that, I still feel overwhelmed. Most times I avoid whatever feelings I have. I don't have anyone here that I can really truely talk to. ALthough I talk to my boyfriend, its not the same as girl talk. SOmetimes I feel like srying but I have not reason why. I feel like he doesn't understand me yet hes supportive of me. I feel so confused sometimes. Maybe its silly or dumb but I miss having a clsoe friend to talk to. I try to stay positive and think in a bright way but sometimes I feel like I can only do that for so long. I wonder if I'll always be depressed or if my life will cycle in this same way. I'm so used to smiling and acting happy that I don't know what my real feeligns are anymore. I used to take everything to heart and everything thing meant something special to me. Now it seems the bad things happen and it doesn't even effect me after all I've been through. I think my emotions are uneffectable. anyway, I would love to hear from any of you out there. After reading over the boards, I find I can relate to many of you...

iVillage Member
Registered: 04-07-2003
Wed, 11-17-2004 - 9:19pm

Welcome to the board,


I so understand about moving to a new community, and not having any friends.

iVillage Member
Registered: 09-02-2004
Thu, 11-18-2004 - 2:07am
Hi there!
I have a friend who just moved away to join the Air Guard and she calls and tells me how much she misses me and how she has no one there to talk to or hang out with. I told her just give it some time. Each time you move everything will be a bit harder at first but you will make new friends in time.
I joined this board two weeks ago through a friend of mine and I'am so glad I did. The girls here are so nice and accepting to new girls like us who have never been on boards before. I want you to know Im on most of the time now and Im here if and when ever you want to chat. Just know that we are here to listen or read:_)
Im pretty alone here in alaska with my two kids and with it being dark most of the time im VERY down as I have the last two days. I feel as the only thing I can do is cry, but on this board it helps me because I get to help someone else which takes my mind of my problems and worries for the time being and that is nice. Welcome
Take care bettina