Very stressful day

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Registered: 04-04-2003
Very stressful day
Sat, 11-20-2004 - 11:50am

Well last night I found out that my boyfriend will be back in our hometown for Thanksgiving this weekend. His dad said he would be coming in sometime in the morning. This is my one chance to talk to him, because if I don't talk to him this weekend he will be gone again and I don't know how to get ahold of him. I just want answers. I have a list of questions to ask him so I don't forget anything. I need to understand all that has happened and why he is throwing our relationship away. All he gave me was a vague email saying he is moving.

SO.... I tried calling about 10 minutes ago and he wasn't there yet. I am trying not to focus on this but it is hard not to! Now I have to wait another excruiciating hour to hour and a half before I call again. I don't want to leave a message because I don't think he'll call me back. I need to take matters into my own hands and contact him, but my heart is absolutely racing with the anticipation.

I am sure this conversation, if it happens, won't make me feel any better right now. But having the knowledge about what is going on will help me move on. Always wondering will not.

I am so stressed! So much anxiety and I am having a hard time handling it!

Just needed to vent.... thanks for listening