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STILL HERE unfortunately
| Sat, 11-20-2004 - 2:32pm |
the last few days have been rough to say the least, but i am still here, a part of me stil wants to check out but after the stunt my 15 daughter pulled last night, i know that she still needs me. she snuck out of the house around 6:30 pm and did not return home until 9:30pm. i walked around the entire trailer pk. looking for her. i was scared to death thinking she had run away. after many phone calls i found out she was riding with some of her friends, one that she is not suppose to be with because the girl is 20, mentally disabled, and allows my daughter to take advantage of her and drive her car, my daughter is not even old enough to have her permit. she came home high as a kite, from smoking pot, and lied right to my face when i asked her where she was. she told me she had been next door the entire time......after i took a few min. to settle down i told her the reasons i was so scared, she does not realize what could happen while they are out joy riding and getting high, and not to mention what serious things could happen to her, or a inocent bystander. this however did help me to get my head out of my ass, and off the pity pot and change my areas of focus. as far as my money(lack of)car and thanksgiving issues i still have not gotten any help...the food pantry does not deliver and walking to town which is a 20min. drive i could never do because of my ms. my daughter tried to blame all this because we are so poor. the department of social services are of no help at this time either, because i need trans. to get there, no local bus line runs out here either. and the person i spoke with said ther is no way to get "immediate" help....but for now i will take baby steps...one thought one second at a time....i have to stop looking at the big picture and focus at the moment at hand right now.....thanks to two who gave me support the other day when i was so very suicidal.......it ment the world to me.......happy thanksgiving to all

peace and love,
just_a_big_kid
Sue
peace and love,
just_a_big_kid
Hi there...I just wanted to give you a hug...I know how hard it is to be flat broke, bipolar, not on meds, and have a "partner" who doesn't work. If you want to talk more, come over to the Bipolar board, that's where I'm always at. I've been where you are. Its not fun, its horribly miserable. I'm so very sorry you're suffering. I wish I could help.
I also have AOL IM where I'm kelisthabomb1
I would love to help you as much as I could.
Hugs.
Keli