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| Tue, 11-23-2004 - 9:28am |
Dear All,
I am not sure what to write down, but what the heck i will write down how I feel, and I wonder if anyone there has the same I am passing through. I turned into 30' two weeks ago, a female from middle east,good looking, have a decent job, currently have a cute love in my life,living with my mother. My problem is as follows, I see myself as a looser, why and I have all these gifts from God. I will tell you why, I feel so lonely sometimes I feel I dont wanna be with anyone but myself. I feel I havent done anything in this life that is worth saying about me. I am not matured, that is am naive though am an intelligent woman, and a great thinker, my problem is that I dont express myself, if I get mad I leave it inside me. I let people hurt me and move on me without defending myself. Sometimes I do, people get shocked that I actually did it. Am afraid of confronting because I build in my mind how the reaction will be from the person infront, so I keep silent which in my mind is better. To be honest this kills me, I see girls and boys who are younger than me and they act in a very grand and lovely way.. is this my wrong and fault plz help
I am not sure what to write down, but what the heck i will write down how I feel, and I wonder if anyone there has the same I am passing through. I turned into 30' two weeks ago, a female from middle east,good looking, have a decent job, currently have a cute love in my life,living with my mother. My problem is as follows, I see myself as a looser, why and I have all these gifts from God. I will tell you why, I feel so lonely sometimes I feel I dont wanna be with anyone but myself. I feel I havent done anything in this life that is worth saying about me. I am not matured, that is am naive though am an intelligent woman, and a great thinker, my problem is that I dont express myself, if I get mad I leave it inside me. I let people hurt me and move on me without defending myself. Sometimes I do, people get shocked that I actually did it. Am afraid of confronting because I build in my mind how the reaction will be from the person infront, so I keep silent which in my mind is better. To be honest this kills me, I see girls and boys who are younger than me and they act in a very grand and lovely way.. is this my wrong and fault plz help
