uhh... help?

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Registered: 11-27-2004
uhh... help?
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Sat, 11-27-2004 - 4:46am

I'm fairly certain I suffer from depression. From what I've seen and dealt with before, all the symptoms are there. However, maybe I'm wrong. Maybe its just cause I'm 18, work full time, I'm eight months pregnant, I'm *trying*, but not really succeeding, to finish my grade 12 (I dropped out, but I'm going back on the account that I don't want my kid growing up thinking that, hey, mommy didn't go to school, so I don't need to either), right now the home life is pretty strained(I live with my bf - we fight all the time- and 2 roommates who can't be bothered to clean up after themselves, even if its something as simple as putting the lid back on butter and putting it in the fridge...so guess who does all the house work too), moneys *really* tight (hence the roommates - otherwise they'd be long gone), until recently I smoked pot on a daily basis, but roommates and bf still smoke pot (not to mention cigarettes) whereever/whenever they want and that makes it *really* hard for me not to roll one up too, and the list goes on and on and on... Or maybe its just pregnant lady hormones and I'm just over-reacting. I doubt it. Either way, I know I need help of some kind, to be able to talk to somebody, because I'm beginning to think that nobody really gives a flying rats arse about me around here cause I certainly can't talk to any of them. So, heres my question, I can't afford a therapist/psychiatrist/whatever u wanna call it, and there's no support groups in my area, so where do I turn, what are some alternatives? Cause I'm really starting to reach the end of my rope here... seriously, when you're in tears everyday and start cutting yourself, you know you need help.

And although I do have very loving parents, they can't afford to pay for therapy either and its really hard to talk to them to because my sister committed suicide when she was 16 (i was 11) and so (while I know they just trying to help) they are *very* emotional around this kind of subject and they're just to - idont know how to put it- over reactive?

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Registered: 11-21-2004
Sat, 11-27-2004 - 9:34am
Oh my gosh, you have a lot going on. In my area, and I think in a lot of places, they have a place for help with not only relationships, but pregnant women. The phone book can usually tell you of a crisis center. They do counseling free. I am so glad you want to be responsible for you and your child. Please know that everything can get better from your current low times. Maybe some supportive friends and/or family can help, too-especially after the baby is born. Hang in there!
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Registered: 07-01-2004
Sat, 11-27-2004 - 11:41am

Welcome to the board.

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Registered: 11-27-2004
Sat, 11-27-2004 - 2:26pm

Thank you for your prompt replies, I hadn't expected anything so quick. I'm from a *very* small community and while there is a suicide hotline in my area, the help from there is pathetic (I once had a friend suffering from a not so great family life call the hotline and the only thing they did was call social services - without first consenting, or even telling her they would do this - and made things a LOT worse), so I'm leary of any kind of phoneline help. We do have a pregnancy/young parenting support group... but I've already checked into that and they're not really equipped to deal with real problems as its more the kind of "this is what to expect when your in labour and how to deal with screaming kids" kinda thing. Which is somewhat helpful (at least it gives me somebody to talk to about pregnancy issues), but they can't really help with anything else. As for the church, well, my dads the minister, and he would be the one I'd have to talk to if I went there, which isn't gonna work. Last time I told them I was having problems (this was a few years ago) they *seemed* ok, until they found me crying in my room and called the cops on me cause they thought I was gonna do something to myself (which I wasn't, I was just having a really bad day). It was embarrassing and harrassing to deal with, not helpful. I wouldn't even be able to go to the school councilor because I'm doing cyber school, and we don't have a councilor.

I'm happy I found this board though... at least it makes a good venting tool. Hmmm... I'm wondering... maybe somebody could suggest some good books? Thanx.

Sarah

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Registered: 04-07-2003
Sat, 11-27-2004 - 4:33pm

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Registered: 11-15-2004
Sat, 11-27-2004 - 5:46pm
I'm sorry that things are so hard for you right now. I've been diagnosed with depression, and I'm currently taking medication for it. I've also had problems with cutting myself and other things like that. I know how frightened and confused you must feel. Please feel free to e-mail me through my profile if you'd like to chat more. I'd be glad to listen to you and just be a friend.