Skipping lunch

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Registered: 11-15-2004
Skipping lunch
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Mon, 11-29-2004 - 12:15pm
I'm back at college after Thanksgiving break. I have my really accurate digital scale here, and I just weighed myself. I wish that I hadn't done it because now I feel horrible. I'm skipping lunch, and just drinking diet Coke because I'm so tired and I need some energy. I'm just so angry at myself. I don't know how I'm going to make it through the day. I really need some diet pills, but I don't have any way to get them today. I tried to get some at Tops last night, but they didn't have the kind I wanted, and it was the middle of the night, so I didn't want to go to Wal*Mart, too. I think that I might be able to get a friend to take me to Wal*Mart tomorrow to get me some. I know that I'm probably not making sense, but I'm just so tired of not being thin. I guess that I just needed to vent. Thanks for listening!
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Registered: 03-27-2003
In reply to: pinkstar84
Mon, 11-29-2004 - 2:58pm

Hi, Pinkstar...what you describe really concerns me. I can definitely relate, having had my own digital scale and allowing it to determine, in part, whether I would have a good or bad day. Please, try to realize that skipping lunch and planning on getting diet pills are steps along a slippery slope to an eating disorder. I am probably somewhere along that slope as well, and I wish I had forced myself to evaluate what I was doing and seek help earlier on.

I really know how you feel, the anger at yourself and the frustration at not being "thin enough." But I know from your previous posts that you are in fact far from overweight... and trying this approach to lose weight is extremely unhealthy and dangerous (I've known several people who've had serious side effects from diet pills, including a stroke).

So please, talk to your doctor before you take this any further. Can you at least try to hold off on starting a diet until you discuss your weight and body image with your doctor or a therapist? I hope I'm not coming across as harsh...I'm just concerned about you.

Hugs,

Rose

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Registered: 11-15-2004
In reply to: pinkstar84
Mon, 11-29-2004 - 4:38pm
Thanks for replying to my post. I'm sorry that you are struggling with the same issues. It's definitely miserable. It does frighten me that you know people who have had strokes and other things like that from taking diet pills, but I'm still desperate for them. I know that sounds really stupid and doesn't make any sense, but I've just got to lose weight.
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Registered: 07-01-2004
In reply to: pinkstar84
Mon, 11-29-2004 - 5:07pm

Excellent post! Re-read your own post and really look at it. That is one woman who will someday be a fabulous doctor!!! No harshness, just compassion and well thought out words. Good job!!!

I certainly hope any one on the slippery slope will not merely read those words but pay heed to them.

Sending hugs and good thoughts your way.
Take care,
Lisa-)
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