what do I do?

iVillage Member
Registered: 11-29-2004
what do I do?
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Mon, 11-29-2004 - 7:04pm
This is my first posting. I didn't know what else to do. I can hardly type through my tears. About 2 months ago, my relationship of a year and a half with my boyfriend ended. I attempted suicide, but failed obviously. I was put in the county mental hospital for three days. For a while my ex-boyfriend and I had been keeping contact and we even started having sex again. He had expressed on several occasions wanting to get back together some day. I found out he was having sex with someone else while he was being with me. I am so angry and so hurt. I feel like I am dying. I hate and love him so much. I feel stupid. Everytime I see him out I flip out on him, and make myself look crazy. I get so embaressed and ashamed of myself. I have no family and all of my friends are in what seem to be happy relationships. I have been trying to be more social, but I just end up feeling like a loser. How do i stop loving him?
iVillage Member
Registered: 07-01-2004
In reply to: hrtbroken72
Mon, 11-29-2004 - 7:44pm

I am sorry you are hurting. It is so hard when you feel you have been used.

It does always seem after a break up that the rest of the world is paired off. All the songs on the radio seem to be about love. funny and sad but true.

Keep posting here. There are many, perhaps too many of us who can relate. There are also relationship boards, and break up boards here. You may find one of those helpful, ivillage has many great depression and breakup workshops.

Post here and read and post to others, you will not be surprised to find many people going through similar experiences.

Welcome!
Sending hugs and good thoughts your way.
Take care,
Lisa-)
Co-CL Depression Support

iVillage Member
Registered: 08-11-2004
In reply to: hrtbroken72
Mon, 11-29-2004 - 9:50pm

((((((((((((((((HUGS HRTBROKEN)))))))))))))))

Breaking up is is so hard, I feel bad that you got your heart broken (hugs). He doesn't even deserve you and you deserve way better. I understand that you care deeply for him but you know usually when they do it once they are likely to do it again and you don't deserve that type of treatment, trust is key in any relationship as far as I'm concerned. I realize how hard this must be for you, it sounds like you really cared for him, but over time it will get easier. Keep posting here, many here can relate to what you are going through and may be able to give you some advice, support and comfort. Rememeber how important you are and please don't settle for second best, you deserve way better, you deserve to be respected. Take care.

Donna :o)

iVillage Member
Registered: 03-22-2003
In reply to: hrtbroken72
Tue, 11-30-2004 - 8:03am

Hi there and welcome.


Emotions cant just be turned off like so many people think, so dont try to stop loving him just like that. What you need to do is 2 things.

*hugs