I don't remember when I lost myself
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I don't remember when I lost myself
| Thu, 12-02-2004 - 11:53pm |
I don't remember when I lost the real me. I have tried meds but couldn't get pasted being tired. I guess I believe that I should be able to handle what life throws at me without using drugs. I am using a really good vitamin pack that seems to help. But today wasn't wonderful, and I still have days when I cry over anything and explode for no reason. I don't know if I will ever feel like myself again. I know that part of my problem is stress and have tried to reduce as much as I can. But I have two young adult children. One is in a long term rehab center. Life is full of stress. I have a wonderful husband that takes good care of me, but then I feel guilty because I don't feel like I am doing my part. Its like I can't win. I didn't use to be this way and I don't know how to get back to where I believe I should be. I guess it is time to go talk to someone. Thanks for listening...

Hi Zizzle and welcome
Please dont be so hard on yourself!
*hugs
lets us know how things work out. !!!
Zizzle,
It sounds like you are still suffering from depression. I think you should consult a psychiatrist to see if talk therapy and/or antidepressant could help. I personally cannot survive without my antidepressants. I was out of therapy for four years and recently began to see a therapist for a short term treatment to deal with some unresolved issues. My therapist keeps on saying I was very "stable". Yes, I am very stable and high functioning but I credit my medication with allowing me to be the way I am.
I have a truly remarkable husband who is loving, caring and patient. I have found that the better I GET THE HAPPIER HE IS. You owe yourself a chance to experience life without depression. You owe it to your family that loves you too!!!
Don't feel guilty about having a loving husband. Make it your motivation for getting better!!!
Good luck.
S.