I don't remember when I lost myself

iVillage Member
Registered: 12-02-2004
I don't remember when I lost myself
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Thu, 12-02-2004 - 11:53pm
I don't remember when I lost the real me. I have tried meds but couldn't get pasted being tired. I guess I believe that I should be able to handle what life throws at me without using drugs. I am using a really good vitamin pack that seems to help. But today wasn't wonderful, and I still have days when I cry over anything and explode for no reason. I don't know if I will ever feel like myself again. I know that part of my problem is stress and have tried to reduce as much as I can. But I have two young adult children. One is in a long term rehab center. Life is full of stress. I have a wonderful husband that takes good care of me, but then I feel guilty because I don't feel like I am doing my part. Its like I can't win. I didn't use to be this way and I don't know how to get back to where I believe I should be. I guess it is time to go talk to someone. Thanks for listening...
iVillage Member
Registered: 03-22-2003
Fri, 12-03-2004 - 7:20am

Hi Zizzle and welcome


Please dont be so hard on yourself!

*hugs             

iVillage Member
Registered: 12-03-2004
Fri, 12-03-2004 - 10:27am
I know what your going through, but I do believe that you need to get back on medication. I have been taking paxil for about 12 years now, and I have tried to get off of them and had a harder time dealing with life in general. My boyfriend doesn't understand why I have to take medication, but I know I do. The medication doesn't fix everything, but it allows me to work and function in life. without it, I don't want to deal with people, I cry for no reason, normal things is 10 times harder to do, why go live life like that, when 1 pill a day will fix it. There are somethings in the world that is not logical but works anyhow, make your life and lives of your loved ones better try medication.
lets us know how things work out. !!!
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Registered: 05-13-2003
Sat, 12-04-2004 - 12:11am


Zizzle,

It sounds like you are still suffering from depression. I think you should consult a psychiatrist to see if talk therapy and/or antidepressant could help. I personally cannot survive without my antidepressants. I was out of therapy for four years and recently began to see a therapist for a short term treatment to deal with some unresolved issues. My therapist keeps on saying I was very "stable". Yes, I am very stable and high functioning but I credit my medication with allowing me to be the way I am.

I have a truly remarkable husband who is loving, caring and patient. I have found that the better I GET THE HAPPIER HE IS. You owe yourself a chance to experience life without depression. You owe it to your family that loves you too!!!

Don't feel guilty about having a loving husband. Make it your motivation for getting better!!!

Good luck.

S.