Forward and then backward

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Registered: 04-04-2003
Forward and then backward
Fri, 12-03-2004 - 11:10pm

This past week has been rough! The second I feel like I am moving forward and feeling better, I end up getting pulled back down to where I was! It is so hard, because I actually do want to be less depressed. I guess that is progress, because before I could have cared less if I ever emerged from my depression, as silly as that sounds. But... its frustrating when you hit glitches like this. Just tonight I was sitting on my couch crying because all the recent events just hit me again and reminded me why I have been so depressed for so many years. It seems like it is one thing after another. How do you find strength to push past these times? I'm having a hard time putting all the bad behind me. It seems like nothing is enough to pull me out of this.

Seya