Good life, but miserable...why?

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Registered: 12-31-1969
Good life, but miserable...why?
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Tue, 12-07-2004 - 10:57am
Im really insecure lately. I take Zoloft 50mg per day. Im under quite a bit of stress due to not seeing my fiance much (every 2 weeks b/c we live in different cities) & I have midterms. I also have very little $ & want to save $ for planning our wedding. Im also on day #17 smoke free which is one of the most difficult challenges right now. Plus there is a lot of other crap going on that is stressing me out regarding my apt/landlord & other random things. However, I have a job that I like (even though I dont get paid much), & I like my coworkers. Im also very happy to be in university as it is a huge challenge for me, but getting an education & learning new things is priceless to me. My family life is better since ironically I dont see them much, so we get along much better. Im madly in love with my fiance & cant wait to get married. I dont have a lot of friends or go out much but I do chat with them once in awhile & have fun when I do see them. Overall I feel like Im a lucky person & have a good life. I do feel miserable though. I feel depressed & I dont know if it is because Im just stressed or because I need a higher dose of meds. Ive been super insecure in my relationship so we've been arguing & I feel so bad. I called my fiance today at work to say Im sorry. I dont want to feel sad, I want to feel happy. What can I do to change how I feel? Please Help, thanks.
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Registered: 10-04-2004
Tue, 12-07-2004 - 4:53pm

It's great that you are able to appreciate the good things in your life right now. They will keep your "trudging" along - sometimes we trudge through life.

peace and love,

just_a_big_kid

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Tue, 12-07-2004 - 8:38pm
Hi Sue, thank you :D Your post really does help me to feel less alone. How are you feeling lately?
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Registered: 10-04-2004
Tue, 12-07-2004 - 8:53pm

Doing much better, thank you! Of course, I have recently been diagnosed with Bipolar II, and I'm here because my depressions are longer and worse then my hypomanic episodes. So, the past few days my mood has been much better, but I know I'm cycling up - even my pdoc noticed it today - I was talking a mile a minute. In fact, it is hard for me to keep up (typing) with my thoughts (LOL!)


hang in there!

peace and love,


just_a_big_kid


Sue

peace and love,

just_a_big_kid

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Wed, 12-08-2004 - 12:42pm
Im glad to hear from you Sue, havent seen u much here b/c Im not on a lot. Im glad that you found out more about your depression, so that you can take better action. I hope whatever you are doing to cope helps you immensly. HUGS!