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| Tue, 12-14-2004 - 10:09pm |
I don't even know where to begin. My Christmas program is tomorrow. It's going fine and should be very good. Just a lot of stress involved with working with 6th and 7th graders.
Lots of extra rehearsals and lots of parties. I had card club here last night. Nice---but so much work getting ready.
My therapist is pregnant with twins. Not sure what will happen there. My doctor leaves for Germany the 26th and won't be back til the 6th of Jan. Saw them both today. Cried a lot.
I am very suicidal---but I know I'll make it thru the night. I didn't work all these months on the Christmas program to throw it all away!
I have so much to do. Very overwhelmed. Sorry to complain so much.
Debbie

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((sweetie)))))))))))))))))))))))))))
I am sure the program tomorrow night will be beautiful.
My name is Lorena and I am new here, I read what you wrote and you sound very sad. I am here to ofer you my shoulder to cry on my mail is elymaloa@yahoo.com wow a christmas program huh sounds like fun. I have a 5yr old and a 2yr old they are lots of work too sometimes i feel overwelmed also it is 11:09pm in texas thats where im from and this is the only time i have to my self besides the fact that i cant sleep. Thoughts of suicide?that's not the way out read this I love this quote "I gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which I must stop and look fear in the face.... I say to myself, I've lived through this and can take the next thing that comes along" I cant remember who said it it was sent to me in an e-mail maybe you know.hope you start to feel better let me know how your program goes. look foward to hearing from you. and of course you can make it thru the night and many more nights think of all the good times.
Dearest Debbie: don't ever feel you are complaining too much. I just can never believe how busy your days are, I can't help but wonder if you run yourself so ragged that if you even stop to breath or pee or shower, your mind just wants to crash from all the demands in your busy schedule. I know the Christmas program will be very nice and a smashing success.
PLEASE, before you would ever attempt suicide, take a cab to the hospital if your husband won't drive you, and with your doctor being out of the country, can he refer you to anyone here in the meantime? I know you wouldn't have built up a relationship with a total stranger but a professional to talk to face to face, if it would keep you save over these next couple weeks, I hope you consider it.
I don't know if you remember from my postings, and yes, now at 48, my suicide attempt at age 13 was a long time ago, but now I am so glad that God saved me, and even if I carried buried guilt over it until age 46, I am thankful now that I am alive. If for no one else, stick around for all of us on the board that love and need you, and your 2 children need their Mom in their life too. As much as you have touched all of us here, you must have touched so many people in your daily life too.
Take care, and may God keep you safe in His arms, love, Josie.
(((Debbie))) My dd's concert is tonight, too. I'm sure that after you get through the show, you will feel much better. The stress of this time of year can be enormous. When I am teaching, this is the time that I am correcting exams and term papers--it's awful! Just keep yourself together for tonight and you *will* feel better...I promise! Can you take some time for yourself over the next couple of days? You must be busy with your church choir, too, or are your Christmas concerts finished by now? Please, please, take some time to destress: you deserve it.
Love, Nicola
(((((Debbie))))), it's easy to become overwhelmed this time of year.
((((((((((HUGS TO YOU DEBBIE))))))))))
This is such a stressfull time of the year. I'm sure everything will go great at your christmas event. Maybe when the christmas program is over you could take just a little time for yourself, have a nice bubble bath, watch a movie or just read a book. Please know we are all here for you and we care very much. You are a special person and you do have the strength to get through this. Your in my thoughts ((HUGS HUGS HUGS))) :o)
Donna :o)