Shaking in my boots!!
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| Thu, 12-16-2004 - 3:37pm |
HI everyone, I just wanted to vent yet again. I'm so scared right now but it's a silly thing. I have this problem with being around people. I try to avoid going out anywhere at all cost. I do get out only because I have to. But while I get ready my stomach starts to hurt, I feel dizzy, I want to throw up. Right now I'm suppose to be getting ready to go vist my husband at work. They are working near where we live and he wants me and my daughter to go have lunch with him. I don't like going, its embarressing. As I mentioned in another post, my husband works on commercials so I have to drive onto set and say HI to everyone on the crew. The producer, the director everyone. I hate it. I'm shaking right now. I get so embarressed. I know it's stupid but I can't help it. Plus the thought of having to go to the mall by myself afterwards makes it even more awful. My husband called said not to worry about it but I could hear the disappointment in his voice. I better go, it's getting late. I'll let you know how it went. Thank you to all of you who have been supporting me. It makes my day. Well here I go.
Sandy

How did it go, Sandy? Did you go? Your dh must be very proud of you and dd to want to show you off to everyone he works with! I hope you had fun at lunch.
~Nicola
hi everyone, ok I did it!! I went. I did as I always do and just jump in head first. I just went. It went well even though the people weren't the usual people he works with. I still knew some of them. They are very nice people I just feel out of place. Instead of eating with everyone else though we got our food and took it to my car. Everyone was outside anyways as they were shooting the commercial at someones home. I was still a little shaky knowing I had to go to the mall alone. My husband said he wished he could go for me but didn't know if he'd have time. I told him I just had to do it. He could tell I was very upset. I told him if I could I'd crawl up in a ball and crawl in his chest to be safe. He said, "you already have, you are in my heart". He made me cry, it made my day. I went to the mall and did what I had to do. I was scared but I did it. I'm so happy to have him and a great family. I just hope this good feeling lasts. It usually doesnt but hope it does. I try to stay postitive. Today is the last day of school for my older son and daughter. I'm glad knowing everyone is here for me on this board. I'll need it for the next 2 weeks that they are home. Thanks everyone!!
Sandy