i wana die pls help

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Registered: 03-08-2004
i wana die pls help
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Sat, 12-18-2004 - 11:07am
i wanan end this now...i really do...i havent a clue as to how to make this better, i dnt knw how to take control of the situation...i cry n cry n cry, dnt eat dnt sleep jst cry..
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Registered: 03-25-2003
Sat, 12-18-2004 - 12:25pm

There are numbers on the main page to call for help. Reach out like you did here on the board and get some help. I get to that point sometimes and I have learned to reach out when it comes. There is help out there. People who really want to help. Call the crisis line. There are medicines that can help. There is in patient treatment that can stabilize you. You reached out here on the board and that is the first step you took to help yourself. You can take another one. I remember the last time I was so low it was so bad. But I have learned through medications I can have a better quality of life. It took me two in patient stays totalling 11 days, to get me stabilized. I am so sorry that any human being has to feel these emotions and I am here for you. Keep reaching out.


Julie

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Registered: 03-27-2003
Sat, 12-18-2004 - 2:07pm

Yes, I couldn't have said it better than Julie...there are people who can help you if you reach out...you don't need to feel this way, and things can get better. Please continue to post here for support and also call someone for help...you can do it...

Rose

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Registered: 03-08-2004
Sat, 12-18-2004 - 2:14pm
because im from the uk i cant call any of the support ads on this board. but i cried like crazy and told my bf everything he was angry with me at first as i dnt make sense but i think he's ok now, now tat i explained the situation to him. im so tired and i need to get my life back...never had my life been brought up in sadness, domestic abuse and abuse from dad...now mum's cut me off cos i talk to my dad. he only speaks to me cos he wants to come bck hme...im alone..neither one of my parents r comin to my graduation i dnt care. i took coke the other nite which annoyed my bf so he refused to see me. this is wat hurt the most,he used to do drugs but i stook by him..why do ppl drop me so quickly? he said ure a girl with problems n i feel sorry for u, leave ur family n marry me cos for the past 2 yrs uve been cryin for 80% of the time. he was rite but it hurt...i wanna be happy, i wana take control i wana do this..but dnt knw how..been lookin at the pills for a long time..only have 4 dnt knw if that wud kill me! doubt it...
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Registered: 08-11-2004
Sat, 12-18-2004 - 8:38pm

((((((((((BIG HUGS TO YOU SAMI))))))))))

I think you need to go talk to someone, you've made the first step by posting here. Maybe you could call a crisis number (probably in your local phone book). Going to your doctor might be of some help, rule out anything physical.

Please know this is a great place to share your feelings, we are all very caring here. Try and take care of your self and if you get feeling really bad go to the emergency department.
You are a good person and you do have the strength to get through this. Let us know how you're doing.

Donna

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Registered: 04-20-2003
Sat, 12-18-2004 - 11:38pm

can u get over to a hospital??

that seems to be the best solution for u now.

they will take care of your meds

and u can talk to someone there.

i agree w u that

there is too much controlling of u.

i agree w u strongly that

u need to take control of u.

then, take the step of
going to a hospital.

be well

kitties

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Registered: 03-22-2003
Sun, 12-19-2004 - 10:25am

Sami!


Here is a link to an international site!

*hugs             

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Registered: 07-01-2004
Sun, 12-19-2004 - 12:35pm

More information for you! First, welcome to our humble board. Second I have seen your kind posts to others, it seems proof positive to me that we need people like you to stay on the planet.

I have been trying to do some searches on my own. But it seems I am not very good at it. I wanted to have some information and help to give you in this time that you really need it.

Here is a link for a UK hotline: http://www.sane.org.uk/public_html/index.html

The header of the iVillage UK Depression message board: http://messageboards.ivillage.co.uk/iv-ukhlcwd

I hope this helps.

Every member is important here. Please don't feel like I am refering you to somewhere else, but I want you to look at every resource for support.

We are here for you.

Sending hugs and good thoughts your way.
Take care,
Lisa-)
Co-CL Depression Support

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Registered: 11-08-2004
Sun, 12-19-2004 - 12:42pm
i don't know what has driven you to this point of dispair...but please don't give up or let your depression win...YOU ARE IMPORTANT...i don't know if you believe in God but what ever is weighing on your heart and mind so heavily give it up to him and trust...i know it sounds corny but i recently felt the same as you and had so much going on in my life that i too just wanted to stop the insanity, but i prayed and told god that i no longer had control of my life and asked him to take over, the answers didnt come immediately but it was amazing when things are now starting to fall into place....keep sharing your feelings and if it gets too difficult call a hotline they don't jugde and can sometimes help to see the bigger picture....God bless you dear and keep you safe remember you are loved............liz

mommadukesliz (liz)

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Registered: 10-03-2004
Sun, 12-19-2004 - 1:43pm
I can so relate to how you feel. Nothing I ever try works. I have lived in hell for over a year. I am going to a physcatrist tomorrow, but I am afraid it is going to be just like everything else, once in a while I feel good for a few days, I can function. I am not myself anymore. I have prayed and had people pray for me....... I am at the mad stage. I don't want to live like this anymore. I have no appetite, I am sad and panicey and alone most of the time, which I hate.
For you, I wish you the best. I will pray for you today, I hope God answers your prayers and brings you out of your hell. God bless you, no one deserves to have to live like this.
By the way, have you got anything to help you sleep? Melatonin helped me. It is over the counter and is better than nothing. Are you on anti-depressants? I am. Also on anxiety medicine.
Hugs to you, I hope you have a better day, you deserve it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Lyndic
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Registered: 03-08-2004
Mon, 12-20-2004 - 7:58pm

thank you all for ur love and support. god bless each n every one of u. i feel better, went to see my bf and he helps soo much, i got the hugs i wanted and lots of kisses:) i feel ok now. i think im jst gna cut my parents out of my life now and keep working hard. im gona be ok...i pray for u all.. thank you

god bless
xxxxx