Just feeling depressed
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| Sun, 12-19-2004 - 2:57pm |
I'm just feeling a little down today, but I've been trying to keep busy. I brushed my golden retrievers, shoveled all the snow off the deck, and now I'm doing laundry. I've also been reading Anna Karenina.
I guess that I've just been feeling fat. I've been binging a lot lately. I'm not overweight, but my mom always makes me feel fat because she gets on my back for eating too much, which, of course, just makes me want to eat more! I always suspect that she thinks I'm chubby, too. She used to tell me that I was when I was in high school, even though I never really was.
I also have a therapy appointment (my first ever) this week, and I'm definitely worried about that. There's so many things that I can't decide whether I want to tell the therapist about or not. I'm just feeling very confused.

Sweetie,
Please dont be worried about your Therapist appt.
*hugs
Thanks for the great advice! You always manage to make me feel better! I think that trying to just enjoy the holidays is good advice. I have a Christmas party to go to tonight at the place where I work during the summers. I'm looking forward to seeing my work friends. I'm just going to try to concentrate on that, and get through one day at a time. I'm also really enjoying spending time with my dogs over the Christmas break while I'm home from college. My younger golden retriever follows me everywhere, and it's a lot of fun to be with him.
I hope that everything is going well for you - thanks again for making me feel better! I'll let you know how the therapy appointment goes.
Hey pink,
I have a question for you and feel free to not answer it but do you ever visit the eating disorders baord here?
i go there every so often and they are a huge help tome the insight and experiance they bring is so great maybe if you havent already maybe you could go there and get some insight..
Also is your therapist a specialist in eating disorders?
I know what it is like to feel out of control and not comfortable in your own skin I suffer and ED also and it sucks it really does I have been this way for over 10 years and I am 29 so you figure it got really crazy when I was about 17 or 18 and now it is in control of me having an ED is a lonley place to be it take over you life it pushes the ones you love the most away from you it makes you alone and sad and afraid and well it consumes you trust me on this I know first hand how bad of a place an ED can take you..
I hope that your therapist can help you with this and help you gain your life back..as for your mom with me my mom doesnt think that I have a problem cause she sees me eat once a day if that what she doesnt see is the pills and other things she thinks that if it is not talked about then it isnt real...nice huh I think that the generation that are parents grew up in was the dont talk about things generation and like the ladies ehre have told me time and time again we cant change our parents but we can change ourselves..
I am sorry if I said something wrong or if Ioffended you but I know that it is hard living with an ED and I hope that with therapy you will learn to live life without it from what I have been told it is a great place to be....I wish you a ton of luck with all this
Erin